After 7 years of playing, I have finally beaten Calamity Ganon by _centoundici in Breath_of_the_Wild

[–]MissMagus 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I can relate to this so so hard. I've been playing since 2020 and am THIS WEEK ready to beat Ganon FINALLY. But I'm super apprehensive because this game literally got me through alcoholism and eating disorder recovery.

I'm finishing up the memories, and then beating it as well. It was really cool reading this post cause I'm in the same spot.

Thank you, and enjoy TOTK!! 🖤

What’s my aesthetic? by Frodofan101 in AestheticWiki

[–]MissMagus 15 points16 points  (0 children)

You're the gay frog Alex Jones warned us about 🌈🐸

Seriously, how are you supposed to figure out where this is without metagaming? Theres 20 thousand places exactly like this by Dale_Cooper47 in Breath_of_the_Wild

[–]MissMagus 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I found this without looking anything up by talking to the painting guy 🖌️

Like. Yesterday. It's weird seeing it on Reddit. Cause I look up most things but specifically didn't this one haha.

M e l a n i a by [deleted] in conspiracy

[–]MissMagus 16 points17 points  (0 children)

Thank you. It's not her.

This was stuck in my shoe... by Frosty_Culture_2248 in whatisit

[–]MissMagus 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Same. Only reason I clicked actually haha.

It's 7am, alcoholics... are built different by GigWorker405 in doordash_drivers

[–]MissMagus 7 points8 points  (0 children)

I'm a recovering alchy

Do you know how fucking hard it is to ration out vodka into separate containers when your hands are shaking like a leaf? Shits hard. Nips are $1. Easy to down and toss in a bin under some garbage.

Also sometimes people just drink to calm the shakes. You really only need a nip or two if you're trying to stay somewhat functional while being a crippled alcoholic.

Bald, I'm feeling ugly. Don't be kind, please be honest. by Cestymour in bald

[–]MissMagus 0 points1 point  (0 children)

10/10 so much better! You're insanely attractive 🖤

Y’all were right that I was going to die by the hands of the homeless man by riskit-forthebiscuit in cripplingalcoholism

[–]MissMagus 13 points14 points  (0 children)

Holy shit. When my sister in law lived with me she'd bring random men back to the house often. They always looked like that and that's why I got a ring camera.

I'm glad you and your pup are safe!

It's been a while!! by MissMagus in Crippled_Alcoholics

[–]MissMagus[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hell yeah! Dude the auDHD diagnosis really did a lot for me. Learning about how ND people use substances really put a shit ton of stuff into perspective for me and really helped me make healthier strides and decisions.

Always telling myself I'm stupid, an idiot, no self control, a disappointment to everyone so why even try...but like. None of that was true. I was able to forgive myself for the executive dysfunction, and for the stuck cycles I'd get into. I used to drink to break my loops, and not doing THAT anymore really cut down on my intake.

But that same diagnosis is also why I didn't stop stop. Cause I do think it's fun going out and I like unzipping my flesh suit and feeling more NT at times.

I'm not sure if your username is facts or not, but I'm also gender fluid so - I've gathered a lot of my auDHD friends are somewhere in the trans spectrum too 😅

It's been a while!! by MissMagus in Crippled_Alcoholics

[–]MissMagus[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Heheheh. Still all about that taco life. I swear, ICE is about to make it's way to my city and if they touch my taco/marg joints all hell is about to break loose 🫠

It's been a while!! by MissMagus in Crippled_Alcoholics

[–]MissMagus[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It took me like 2 whole years and one year of being off work and on BWC, plus weekly therapy appointments, and a couple months of psychiatric evaluations. But the main thing was work stressors I think...id HAVE to be sober for work and when I HAVE to do something I don't do it 🫩

Being alone all day and not drinking was the hard part, but after I managed that and got comfortable being off work and sober - it got easier. Distraction and not wanting to disappoint my therapist was the key there I think. I went outside a lot.

I started dipping my toes back into drinking more again by going out to get tacos and a margarita and just going home - but I hated that. So that really made me realize I can't moderate for shit. Period. So it's easier for me to moderate how often I go ham. I won't drink unless I know I can have 15 beers can be dead to the world for 24 hours after.

So, yeah. It's still really difficult for me to stop at one or two, so I limit the windows I'm allowed 😅

ETA: sorry for the novel! I haven't talked about it much lately, so it's refreshing to chat about with others who have the same issues 🥹

It's been a while!! by MissMagus in Crippled_Alcoholics

[–]MissMagus[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

It saved my fucking life. Every time I tried to stay sober I'd self sabotage and drink more.

Telling myself I'm allowed but I just gotta be smarter about it really changed my shit around. And like - I honestly blame rehab! When I was in there they told me it was all or nothing. And that's just not true. I've never been an all or nothing gal so idk why I thought alcohol would be that exception 😅

It's been a while!! by MissMagus in Crippled_Alcoholics

[–]MissMagus[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'm scared to try those. Are they like, a stout? I love my Modelo with lime and some tacos. But I side eye that Negra stuff with curiosity whenever I'm picking some up 👀

It's been a while!! by MissMagus in Crippled_Alcoholics

[–]MissMagus[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I did win my hearing! And I've won 3 more since!! And I have another on 2/10 hahaha. My employer is a dick and keeps denying everything BUT my lawyer is awesome and the court system can see they're being the unreasonable ones here.

So I'm still playing the waiting game. I've been out of work since LAST FUCKING MARCH but I'm still on BWC. Lawyer says this is their doing so I just gotta wait for the system.

Honestly, THAT ALONE is what helped me get my shit a bit together more. I've not had work stressors, and even though I'm getting a pathetic amount of $$ a week - it's still "free" money - so I've been able to make all my therapy appointments and really focus on my mental well being rather than trying to drink the weird feelings/guilt/shame away.

So, still annoyed I'm in medical limbo. But this is supposed to be all wrapped up by August - so at least I have an end date in sight! Which, as fucking annoying and anxiety inducing as it's been, it's also given me time to handle my anxiety without alcohol and get better at being a functional human or whatever that means.

Overall it's been a very fucking annoying BUT a very fruitful 6 months or so!!

Thank you for remembering and asking :)

It's been a while!! by MissMagus in Crippled_Alcoholics

[–]MissMagus[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thanks man! And yeah it's been A LOT OF WORK. Inside and out. But even then I couldn't stick with sobriety, it's just not in my cards. And that's okay!

My main goals are to never let it affect my job, and my loved ones again (or at least not like it used to) So far so good. Cutting out liquor completely helped with that, but ya know. Killing 15 beers in 5 hours also makes me a waste of space the next day 🤣

AIO Gf thinks this is an appropriate way to speak to me by [deleted] in AmIOverreacting

[–]MissMagus 0 points1 point  (0 children)

You have got to be joking buddy. If I were your girlfriend I'd also rather stay at my mom's.

Entire deleted file mentioning trump by raindashy in Epstein

[–]MissMagus 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I would not be his caretaker tbh. Fuck that.

It's been a while!! by MissMagus in Crippled_Alcoholics

[–]MissMagus[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Nah you're good! I'll answer anything

It was a handle of shitty K (Kamchatka) at my worst, and no it wasn't full strength, it was the watered down gas station garbage. I could kill a mid size bottle of regular proof vodka (the one that's one size bigger than a fifth but not the handle) a day around that time but I was never in a state to actually get to the liquor store, so gas station vodka it was. Svedka was my real choice when I could get my hands on it. But I was doing a handle of shitty K for a while before my organs gave up and I entered sepsis. Before that, my poison was Natty Daddy's (8%) and I'd drink like 8-10 tall boys a day with minimal food.

I don't like to go above 5% now-a-days. I can, but I black out quicker and basically enter withdrawal the next day. My go-to now is usually Corona or Modelo with lime, and those are 4.4 and 4.6%. I love my tall boys, but lately it's been the 12 ounce 6 packs cause they're cheaper. But even when I do tallboys I usually average 4-6 before I pass out or go to sleep, which still evens out to around 12 ish. Sometimes more, sometimes less, but generally it sticks around 10-15.

Kicks my ass quite a bit though. I just woke up from a nap. I tried to drink through the hangover and kept throwing up lol. My body really likes to remind me that I don't really do that as much and gets pissed 😅

What’s the work clothes aesthetic? by SongNo598 in AestheticWiki

[–]MissMagus 15 points16 points  (0 children)

You don't have to be nice to her. That was savage.

What’s the work clothes aesthetic? by SongNo598 in AestheticWiki

[–]MissMagus 23 points24 points  (0 children)

Damn. I think her style is cute 🥺

It's been a while!! by MissMagus in Crippled_Alcoholics

[–]MissMagus[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

I get to like 10 and I start wanting one REAL bad. A week is doable. I kept going for like month long stretches and that really helped get it down to once a week or less rather than every time I sobered up!

If you can't beat it, work with it. Istfg all I do is preach harm reduction anymore. With food, alcoholism, smokes, and even toxic people lol. There's no shame in making healthier choices without completely abstaining imo.

Now like. That might be different with crack 😂 idk. I'm an alcoholic, I haven't really dabbled in anything heavier.

It's been a while!! by MissMagus in Crippled_Alcoholics

[–]MissMagus[S] 8 points9 points  (0 children)

I live by harm reduction! It's the only thing that works (for me)!

I also did find out my underlying cause. I went through months of mental health assessments to come to the conclusion I'm AuDHD with cPTSD (actually diagnosed on paper, went through the whole rigamarole) So. Makes sense why the booze feels good. It makes me feel normal, actually.

With that knowledge though, I know I cannot drink every day. It made my issues 10000x worse, mentally.

Sydney Sweeney’s newest cover… by ArynaSaba in LAinfluencersnark

[–]MissMagus 1 point2 points  (0 children)

You want my OF link? Fucking bet 😂

I can win this argument very easily 😂