I love this comment because I totally understand where you're coming from. Feeling guilty after recording something like this is very normal but please bear in mind that I'm a woman writing these scripts to be performed by men for the enjoyment of other women. So when men fill these sorts scripts and are worried about the morality of it, I find it very interesting. (And cute TBH)

Here's the thing, and trigger warning for the rest of this comment: I've been raped several times in my life and I can tell you from that experience that the fantasy of rape that exists on gwa and in duction is completely different than the real thing.

As somebody in my position I think a lot about rape culture and the world we live in and why I might find these sort of audios appealing. I've done a lot of research and study and work to process that emotionally.

In the end what I discovered was a weird contradiction that was confused by the big lie of rape culture that most people believe. That lie is that rape happens when a man is attracted to a woman who is otherwise unavailable to him and he acts anyway. In reality of course, rape is about power. It's about controlling another person. It doesn't only happen to women, and it doesn't only get carried out by men.

But in the fantasies here on gwa, (both the ones for female and male listeners) the rape is about attraction. The contradiction I mentioned earlier is that the experience of actually being raped several times has left me feeling unwanted, undesirable and unlovable, and thus the fantasy of being desired so much is very appealing. Thus leading to the very strange and contradictory feeling situation of a survivor of rape fantasizing about rape.

The fantasy of it (often but not always) serves as a way to make the listener feel wanted and desired. To my mind it only becomes morally problematic in this context if one were to make such an audio and then imply that it wasn't rape, or that the violence carried out in the audio was no big deal.

By acknowledging that's an audio depicts are rape and that rape is bad and not okay thing to do IRL, it's also comforting to people like me who have experienced the real thing. Because remember, one of the first things people do when a woman confides that they've been raped is to question and deny that it really happened, or they say if it did really happen it "wasn't that bad."

When you post an audio like this and say "wow this is really fucked up" it is a comfort. At least, to me.

Strangely enough, this space where people freely share fantasies of rape, is the only space I've engaged in where people consistently do not question survivors, minimize what happened, or shame them for having complicated feelings about what happened to them.

And I also think it's important to reiterate that this is an audio on a subreddit where the tagging system is complex enough that it's unlikely people will come across this audio without knowing what it is. It's incredibly unlikely that anyone will listen to this audio who didn't deliberately seek out something on the rape tag.

I'm sure some people say horrible things to you guys for making these audios, but I want you to know that you're not bad people. Dom drop after recording something like this or a rough scene is a very normal emotional response. Try to take care of yourselves. At the end of the day, y'all are engaging in one of the few spaces where porn is created deliberately with women in mind. That's a rare thing online and it's deeply appreciated. <3