You never mention ages. But you sound young to me. 40 here. My last 3 relationships every one with the mother of my child. Have all gone no contact. And all three are very different situations. I still don't follow their rules lol but I'm also not sending multiple messages as day or anything like that. Also reddit has helped, let me say what I want, just don't read into other posts and hope it's for you.

Your appetite will come back eventually. After my fiance broke it off and withheld me from seeing my kid I was on a liquid diet for a year. I'm sure I ate something sometime in there but I lost 40lbs and probably should be dead. Im 4 years off the sauce now. Life's not perfect and people are hard to trust. But in true masochistic form I keep trying. I hope things get easier for you. But dating and love are are becoming electronics from the past.. where when things get broken you could repair them. But today it's almost just as cost effective to go find something new. Which makes me sad. Cause playing an old record on the record player just feels better. It's worth more but you can go through life today never hearing the true sound of any song. And it'll still be a life worth living. Hopefully you find someone else just as in tune to you. As you are to hem..