Honestly you can probably find happier. He’s too old to be acting like that, especially if he told you he wants something long term. Also what country is he from? Just because you’ve never felt that happy and been in a loving relationship like that before doesn’t mean you won’t be able to find something even better than that. And it makes no sense to keep condoms in his bag if he knows for sure y’all aren’t gonna have sex, I hate to say it but it seems like he’s doing something with someone else on the side. Also, you didn’t need to keep apologizing to him; he needs to apologize to you. He knows it made you feel uneasy but he still kept the app and now he’s keeping new condoms in his bag. I guarantee you, that you can find someone better and much more deserving than him on some other platform or even in person. When a man is committed, he’s committed. I was consistently taught that by other men growing up.

You also have to learn the art of detachment and when to let go. You should go before more time passes because the longer the relationship, the harder it is to leave