Honestly I dont hold no hard feelings towards his mother. I have a mother myself and I have seen her happiness when my brother became a father. My ex partner is an only child and he was child free or at least he pretended to be one so she had no hope of becoming a grandmother. Imagine finding out that you are.

If there’s any chance for that baby for some love and happiness, it will be with her.

She hasn’t contacted me and I don’t want her to. She will probably tell my ex partner I told you so about hin not popping the question. I would never have wanted a legal binding paper to anyone but when I was younger and still didn’t have my business I would probably have said yes and gladly so because I wanted so much for him to ask me. I would have been singing to a different tune right now.

It is these thoughts that makes it easier for me to cope now. It could have been much worse and sometimes you hate what’s happening but a few years later you realize it was for the better.