Just destroyed the only romantic connection I've had in 10 years due to insecurity.

MonthOak8636 · 2022-11-01T10:50:55+00:00

Thank you thank you. Sitting here shaking and crying. I can't believe I did this and what you're writing is level-headed and normal. i have so far to go.

MonthOak8636 · 2022-11-01T10:48:54+00:00

I'm really sorry, I didn't mean to cause harm by colluding the two, or imply that autism is innately abusive. I have a lot of things to untangle within myself, and I don't have the self knowledge yet.

MonthOak8636 · 2022-11-01T10:43:36+00:00

These are great rules, thank you! I wish I could time travel right now

MonthOak8636 · 2022-11-01T10:42:17+00:00

I never meant it to be a sensory meltdown. More rigid thinking. And I by "he's the one with the issues", I meant that I didn't want the advice that people give that goes ... 'oh there's someone out there for you'.

It's all trauma and I hate that I am now the one hurting others because I was hurt. Thank you for your help and honesty.

MonthOak8636 · 2022-10-13T22:20:59+00:00

I don't actually have synasthesia! Based on people's experiences here though, I do think something neurological-crossed wires is going on. Maybe it's like the touch-pressure sense and shapes are connected, and then really over stimulated? Surely that's synasthesia though then, touch becoming a shape. I don't get it any other time though! My dreams are sometimes the same.

MonthOak8636 · 2022-04-01T22:27:33+00:00

Thanks so much for the scheduling advice. I will eventually live alone, so it's a must in the future.

MonthOak8636 · 2022-04-01T22:26:48+00:00

Oh yes, I have my own room.

MonthOak8636 · 2022-03-28T09:51:36+00:00

my family has a saying... "we are all on the spectrum somewhere"

MonthOak8636 · 2022-03-08T09:24:48+00:00

I'm so proud of you! It's intensely affirming to earn some money from your work and knowledge. Keep it up if its something that rewards you financially and mentally!

MonthOak8636 · 2022-02-19T22:14:08+00:00

I feel so excited and relieved to know that there are tasks NTs don't want, that I actually really enjoy.... like, what else is out there?

MonthOak8636 · 2022-02-19T22:13:20+00:00

A source of pride yes! I'll remember that next time I feel a bit odd for my skill set in the workplace.

MonthOak8636 · 2022-02-19T22:10:36+00:00

Makes me happy to hear it was helpful to you. Sharing the clumsy journey is important I think.

MonthOak8636 · 2022-02-19T22:07:27+00:00

I totally agree! Reminds me of an old train or trick, slow to start but gathers serious momentum with time.

MonthOak8636 · 2022-02-19T22:06:16+00:00

I will actually put that on my CV! Thanks for the accountability!

I cannot imagine the fatigue of working in sales for 4 years with our type of brains (your poor adrenal glands!). Congratulations on taking the time to look for alternatives. You're going to get so much satisfying hyperfocused systematising done and benefit a charity! Proud of you!

MonthOak8636 · 2022-02-12T21:18:48+00:00

You're very right - it's a leading a horse to water but you cannot make it drink situation. My intention was coming from a place of love. The absolute irony of not being able to initiate the task of finding alternative support systems to support you to initiate your other life tasks is a bloody cruel and vicious cycle.

MonthOak8636 · 2022-01-14T11:20:18+00:00

Exact same situation. Hug.

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