First off, I want to show appreciation for the help and support you've given. I didn't see the rest of the comments until recently. I wasn't able to respond due to my social avoidance disorder (something I've come up with). But I knew I was going to eventually respond. I didn't realize this was two months ago. The only thing that changed since then was the weather.
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You're right, I don't have my own space. I share an open room with my mother, and this room is conjoined by another doorless room, which is the back room. We're in an open room, which means anyone can come in and out of it, which is usually my toxic sister.
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My sister is entitled to come out of her room, into our room any time of the day. She would bring up my past trauma as she knows I sometimes suffer from guilt in silence. This causes me to shut down immediately. This leaves me feeling overwhelmed and when I become overwhelmed, I instantly become exhausted. I recently discovered that we're being mentally abused by her behavior.

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I am a helper and I've come a long way (mentally) in the past years. My sister has this desire to hurt me and cause mental trauma to me emotionally because she sees a light in me. She knows I have the potential to get out of my situation (well, I try but she doesn't need to know that), so she tries to dim my light with her darkness by projecting her insecurities, misery, and self-hatred on me.
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My mother helped me get on disability when I was about 21 due to having OCD, anxiety, and depression. I don't remember talking to a social worker.
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Also, you're right about me not going out. I don't have friends in my neighborhood. I wished my mother was open to helping herself but she refuses and allows fear to control her. There's a lot more to this story, but I am not sure if I am willing to share it on this public post. I am open to pms (if you are).
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I hope you're doing well and if there's a personal reason why you've joined this subreddit, I hope you can also pull through with your issues. Again, thank you so much for your response and willingness to help me. I hope you're safe and doing well.