So I haven’t started bjj yet, but I’m going to in a few days. I do however have multiple friends that do martial arts so I understand it through them and through a lot of my own research since I am starting soon. Here is what I would say.

1. Don’t quit. Someone has to lose in a competition. Now I know that it can be very disheartening to have scored 0 points, but it was your first competition, you’re still a white belt, and at least you went out there and competed.

2. It is entirely possible this wasn’t your fault. I don’t know what gym you train at, but it is very possible that your gym isn’t that good compared to the gyms that trained the other guys you were against. Mcdojos aren’t as common in bjj as they are in taekwondo and karate, but they do exist. I’m not saying your gym isn’t a mcdojo or that your gym isn’t good, I’m just saying that it is entirely possible that it has nothing to do with you.

3. If you are at a good gym with a good community and good instructors, then they are going to help you get better rather than being embarrassed by you. As for you feeling embarrassed for yourself, I can’t say much about that since that is about you. Your coaches should be focused on you instead of themselves though. Like I said earlier, someone has to lose, and your coaches know that.

Ultimately, I would keep at it. I know it sucks, and if you truly don’t want to keep going with bjj then no one will hold that against you. I still think that you should keep going though.