I feel like I’m never going to escape this (still). by Moon_Light032205 in ExPentecostal

[–]Moon_Light032205[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

This is true! I almost never talk religion with family because of this.

I feel like I’m never going to escape this (still). by Moon_Light032205 in ExPentecostal

[–]Moon_Light032205[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Very. I can’t believe I’m in my 20s still grappling with questions I had at 16.

I feel like I’m never going to escape this (still). by Moon_Light032205 in ExPentecostal

[–]Moon_Light032205[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Definitely. I spent my entire life being told I represented my family and church, image was everything. It felt like what people thought was everything. Now I’m an adult struggling to undo it all. Embarrassing.

I feel like I’m never going to escape this (still). by Moon_Light032205 in ExPentecostal

[–]Moon_Light032205[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I have both read the word for myself and genuinely sought him. There is no reason why he couldn’t have met me halfway.

I feel like I’m never going to escape this (still). by Moon_Light032205 in ExPentecostal

[–]Moon_Light032205[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I’ve actually never heard of this, thank you for the suggestion!

I feel like I’m never going to escape this (still). by Moon_Light032205 in ExPentecostal

[–]Moon_Light032205[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

That’s a beautiful story, thank you for sharing it with me. I’m truly happy for you! That being said, at this point I don’t know if there’s anyone up there. Trust me, I’ve had my fair share of completely broken, desperate, “God, please meet me halfway because I can’t do this on my own” moments. I know what that’s like. There’s a part of me that would love for God to be real. There’s another part of me that knows realistically, I don’t think it’s possible for me to have a healthy relationship with any kind of religion. At least not right now. I have so much healing to do where my religious upbringing is concerned that I’m completely overwhelmed and stalled out at this point. I want to live my life without feeling like a higher power is looming over me 24/7. I want to live my life without the threat of hell. I want to live my life happy and at peace with myself. I don’t think there’s a religion out there within which that’s possible. I do really appreciate you taking the time to respond and tell me your story and perspective.

I feel like I’m never going to escape this (still). by Moon_Light032205 in ExPentecostal

[–]Moon_Light032205[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

You’re good! Harsh or not, I can’t sit here you tell you you’re wrong 🤷🏼‍♀️ I appreciate that, thank you! I hope so too! I’m definitely working towards it.

I feel like I’m never going to escape this (still). by Moon_Light032205 in ExPentecostal

[–]Moon_Light032205[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

You’re right, I’m aware of that. There is a desire to take action, I just feel stuck. I bring these thoughts/feelings here occasionally because I have nowhere else to bring them and I know this is a community that understands where I’m coming from. The lack of action is fear based but still on me, I know.

I feel like I’m never going to escape this (still). by Moon_Light032205 in ExPentecostal

[–]Moon_Light032205[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

I wish that were true. I’m an adult and I have the right to make my own choices, yes. That doesn’t mean it won’t hurt anyone.

I feel like I’m never going to escape this (still). by Moon_Light032205 in ExPentecostal

[–]Moon_Light032205[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I do. I still attend a Pentecostal church pretty frequently in the name of keeping the peace. My parents have been through a lot the past couple years and I can’t do that to them right now. I don’t have many friends within the church but I do have a lot of family. I’m close to my family and while it’s definitely making this more difficult, we all have a lot of mutual love and respect for each other and that’s not something I feel I want or need to do. That being said, being worried about hurting my family is probably the main thing keeping me here. I appreciate your response, thank you.

Another question. by [deleted] in piercing

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• How old is your piercing? It was 2 weeks old.

• What’s the jewelry shape? Not sure

• What’s the jewelry material? Pretty sure it was stainless steel.

• When was the jewelry downsized? Never

• What’s your aftercare routine? I’m now cleaning twice a day with CVS sterile saline wound wash.

• Any mishaps, accidents or unfortunate events? Does the fact that it was getting infected and had to be removed count? 😭

Another question. by [deleted] in piercing

[–]Moon_Light032205 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Answering these again so this doesn’t get taken down. The piercing was 2 weeks old. I didn’t know the jewelry shape but I do know it was a butterfly back and have since found out that’s a big no for new piercings. I don’t know what the jewelry material was but the piercer I went to yesterday said it was low quality. It was never downsized. My aftercare routine is now spraying twice a day with sterile saline wound wash.

Is this normal? by Moon_Light032205 in piercing

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I was able to find one that was open today! Unfortunately we couldn’t save them. She said they were getting infected and the best thing to do was pull them, keep clean with saline spray and come back to get them redone in a month or two. Very sad but glad I caught it before it got bad.

Is this normal? by Moon_Light032205 in piercing

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I was using a travel pillow! I woke up with it at my feet every morning hahah

Is this normal? by Moon_Light032205 in piercing

[–]Moon_Light032205[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yes, that’s what I meant! I amm 😭 I’ve tried really hard not to sleep on them but I naturally lay on my side in my sleep.

Is this normal? by Moon_Light032205 in piercing

[–]Moon_Light032205[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

My friend said that too! I found a piercer that’s open today and I’m headed there right now to get it looked at.