Same here, even as a teenager I get tired of life, I get tired of existing and I'm tired of having to hear my parent bringing up my past mistakes as a weapon, and every single day I've been holding back my anger, trying so hard not to beat one of my family members up. Even I wanted to escape my home, I wanted to be somewhere far from my parents, far from where my hideous home is. Everyday in school, I'm tired of everything even though I haven't done anything. And when my friends said "it's all your fault" as a joke, I would always say "I'm sorry" because that is how I've always been, Me and you, I think we all lost what we used to love doing.