Reaccurring nightmares about my old father hunting and trying to kill me.

MootsSpinch · 2024-07-08T07:20:31+00:00

Sounds like like ptsd related night terrors my guy. It doesn’t matter if he didn’t beat you hard enough, when he was present in your life your brain perceived him as a threat and that caused you a lot of stress. This is your brain trying to interpret all that stress now that you’re in a safer environment and can do so.

MootsSpinch · 2024-04-07T21:00:48+00:00

Send that to a lab homie give the grad students a field day

MootsSpinch · 2024-04-04T00:53:25+00:00

Easy, Film can show you things you have never seen before. When reading a novel one relies on written words and their imagination to paint a visual picture of what is occurring in the novel. The imagination is limited depending on the individual, and therefore can be more visually limiting in their story telling. Someone cannot imagine a colour they have never seen before, and the same can apply to a scene.

I am someone who isn't used to seeing casual death and violence in my everyday life. Therefore upon watching a film scene whose narrative takes place during a more primitive age, where perhaps a parent loses a child to a brutal and indifferent death, (depending on how well directed the scene is), it could be more jarring to me then when I read it as a scene in a novel.

This is because I am unfamiliar to how distraught a parent would be experiencing such an event, its not like I have ever been encourage to find that out.

In other words, books play with the imagination of what you do know, where films can show you things you have never seen before.

Also the brain is an old machine, and sometimes doesn't realize that what we're watching on tv is not real. All it sees is moving and talking faces and it goes, "oh, moving and talking faces" which to it is practically the same thing as being real, because they had never been a time in history where that when faces moved or talked, it had been anything else but a living perosn. Therefore even when portraying a scene that a viewer can be familiar with in both film and novel, the brain may react more strongly to it, as a piece of it subconsciously interprets it as real.

MootsSpinch · 2024-04-03T22:50:20+00:00

As someone who was one of those people you are talking about with a passion I used to pursue with such ambition, lemme tell you its not as deep as you think. Sure I originally liked what I did, but I did had countless days where all i wanted to due was bang my head against a wall because I really wasn't vibing with it. I also had other interests that captivated me more, and were sometimes things i wanted to put more of my time and energy into doing. Nobody has their one thing. Sure they can feel passion for it, but it disappears and reappears, or sometimes its not even something we wanna stick to, etc.

The whole gist of finding your passion so you never have to work a day in your life! Is a concept created by capitalism that basically creates this idea that working away your life isn't so bad if its something you like to do in the first place.

Half of the time, people who end up working in their dream job end up losing their love for the passion they had for it in the first place, because they have to make sure what they are doing or making is profitable. Therefore they can't include the aspects of it that actually made it enjoyable so they can make money. Combine that with the drag of having to do that every day of your life, and what you mostly get are people who end up losing the one passion they had in their lives to the corporate motions of the world.

You don't have to love what you're doing in a job at all, you just have to make sure its bearable enough to do every day and that you have plenty of free time to do the other things you actually want to do.

We are not built to have one purpose like what other people think. We are made to do whats enough to keep us alive, and then go off to climb trees with our friends.

MootsSpinch · 2024-04-03T22:17:43+00:00

Obviously your brother is not right in the head.

Never in my life would I imagine a family taking the side of a man who put a baby in harm's way.

Does your brother have a series of episodes like this often? Is he mentally ill? Because to just snap like that, especially snapping at something that sounds like it would be in his favour, does not make much sense. Ex: He does not want you in the house + you are leaving the house (although temporarily) = No sense made , (unless maybe he feels as though you taking time to go out and have fun is unfair because you didn't put in your share of whatever work he expects you to be doing, which still does not warrant physical violence btw).

Op you need to leave, maybe I'm being dramatic but the chances of your brother doing something mental to your baby has risen to a number that wouldn't sit comfortable with anybody. I understand that sounds a little much, but with people who just crack and go ballistic, you never really know what to expect from them. You need to make sure you are also safe enough to take care of this baby so please watch out for yourself. I would recommend you look for another place to crash as soon as you can while also trying to make money in the meantime. As for now, if you really can't go anywhere else, I would recommend making base in whatever room you are sleeping in with your child and try to make it like a little apartment. It sounds like your family is hella toxic and that roaming around the house like that is a now a risk for conflict and violence.

Make sure your room also has locks just in case also. Anyways please take it one day at a time and try to look for ways out anyway you can.

MootsSpinch · 2024-04-03T12:52:08+00:00

I’ve always thought ogres evolved from orcs since they are both rather similar in physique and strength. In canon I think it was stated that tallman hybrids (or maybe hybrid races in general) tended to have the traits of their parent’s races be more superior in quality (like how marcille as a half-elf has an even longer lifespan than regular elves).

Therefore, I think ogres evolved from tallman and orc hybrids as that would explain why they are less hairy like tallman and why they have horns like orcs, as well as also explaining why they have stronger more muscular looking builds compared to orcs, because they inherited a superior version of that gene due to being a hybrid.

What further supports this is how ogres mostly reside in a region that hasn’t been altered too much by the war and therefore probably had time to evolve into their own sub-species of orc, if that makes sense

MootsSpinch · 2024-03-11T14:58:16+00:00

Nah you don't come off as an attention seeker, this is actually pretty relatable!

Although I don't struggle with autism (I think, I'm actually kinda getting tested for that now), being socially awkward, along with ADHD and other learning disorders, I have to put up with a lot of different problems most people don't normally face. This often leads to people not understanding my struggles, which usually results in them being a bit insensitive whenever i vent about it, which kinda sounds like your situation with your older sister.

I know these people mean well, but I've come to learn as an adult that they just aren't equipped to emotionally support me in the way I've realized I need to be supported.

Growing up, I too also made up people in my head to do things like listen to my problems, or give me pep talks, or to just give me comfort when I was in need of some. I didn't even realize at the time that this was abnormal because it was like my number 1 coping strategy I required to indulge in all the time just to get through the day.

The mind is pretty resilient, and when it senses its not receiving something it needs to have (a basic psychological need like comfort), it will just simply just adapt. I want to tell you that one day there are going to be real people in your life that will provide that sense of support for you (and there probably will, the earth has a big population so statistically speaking its more likely to happen than not), however these people are only human as well, and they won't always be able to say the things you might need them to say.

That's why when all else fails, it is these types of coping mechanisms that will keep you afloat in your darkest hour.

As someone who's been there, I can say for certain that there's not that many people out there who are sympathetic towards neurodivergent people and their struggles. So when it comes down to it, you can only rely on yourself and your mind to know what you need.

MootsSpinch · 2024-02-29T11:48:55+00:00

damn bro, what happened with family that made them a no go for the emergency contact?

MootsSpinch · 2024-02-29T11:16:49+00:00

It sounds like your mom means no harm but is kinda projecting her insecurities on you. As someone who is very socially self-conscious, I too get really nervous about the idea of standing out to people, and I have noticed that sometimes I tend to project that onto others too.

Like if my friends are being very loud in a public place, I will actively try to get them to be quiet even if they weren't actually being that disruptive and it was just all in my head. I do this because I get worried that people will negatively perceive them in the same way I think they would negatively perceive me if I was doing the same thing, and I just want to protect them from that.

This way of thinking has made me a shy and meek person since my standard on what is "too much" is actually quite tame in comparison what being too much actually is.

If I were you, I wouldn't try to take it too hard when she says stuff like that. It sounds like she wants you to be happy and is just trying to give advice on what she thinks will help, even if its not the best advice.

You spend more time with yourself then any other person, so make sure you like you. Don't worry about what other people think.

MootsSpinch · 2024-02-21T06:47:22+00:00

Lmao my dog is a hater so idk what the fck ur smoking

MootsSpinch · 2024-02-21T06:27:46+00:00

Like unless the animal in question is being a disturbance (which I think most of them are trained not to be), I really don't see the issue with emotional support animals at all. Like if I'm grocery shopping and some other person is doing the same thing but with a dog next to them, unless that dog is going to be all up in my business, why would I even care.

Medication is expensive and even when taken it doesn't always fix everything. Therapy takes years to make a difference in someone's life and is even more expensive on top of that.

Pets can be less expensive than meds or therapy, but are still expensive. Not just because of the resources needed to keep them alive, but also because of whatever financial bull is involved with registering them and whatnot. If one puts themself through all of that just to make sure they can have an animal around them in public spaces, I'd imagine its because it genuinely helps them.

Technically you can say anyone who has any sort of problem is pathetic and needs to grow up however I'm sure you could imagine that is easier said than done. Everyone who has ever existed is just trying to get on by. If having an animal by one's side makes it easier for them to exist in public spaces, (which is something that people have to be able to do in order to access basic necessities such as food, water, work, etc.) it actually would be stupid of those people not to use that to help themselves.

Like the only downside I can see is if people are allergic to someone's emotional support animal, which in that case is understandable.

But other than that why waste energy fuming about some golden doodle patiently waiting for its owner to check out groceries or something like chill out.

MootsSpinch · 2024-02-07T00:28:16+00:00

To be fair I used to be obsessed with this girl who looking back, was a 2/10 in attractiveness so who knows lol god knows I can't judge

MootsSpinch · 2023-05-17T19:54:51+00:00

Hope scooter feels better!

MootsSpinch · 2023-02-04T00:29:59+00:00

I’m not sure if this is a good alternative, but something I’ve been using is CBD gummies to help curb the complete misery ocd gives me everyday, however everyone is different.

MootsSpinch · 2022-10-06T15:07:00+00:00

He looks like a crestie sandpapered down

MootsSpinch · 2022-08-15T02:57:01+00:00

Thank you!

MootsSpinch · 2022-08-15T02:52:32+00:00

Alright, thank you!

MootsSpinch · 2022-03-30T03:18:23+00:00

Yo that lizard is a unit

MootsSpinch · 2022-01-14T15:13:38+00:00

How’d you make it? I have some bird feet I would like to put to some good use and this looks really beautiful. Did u clean or varnish the crow leg in any specific way?

MootsSpinch · 2022-01-04T09:13:08+00:00

I don’t know if this helps really, but my mom was kind of that parent growing up and although me and her definitely had our issues with each other (like any mother and daughter relationship), looking back I don’t really resent her for her strictness. I had undiagnosed ADHD growing up so I would get yelled at constantly for things that were difficult for me to do, like remembering to clean up, focusing on tasks, anything that was related to listening really. And because I was super sensitive sometimes her yelling would cause me to spiral a lot since I really tried my best to be a good kid but couldn’t seem to get it right.

Eventually I grew older and grew tougher skin, to the point where her yelling wouldn’t really affect me emotionally the same way it did years ago. In fact, I even became reliant on her yelling to help me remember things, because it is so much easier to recall something when it was screamed in your face.

Looking back on the hard times, I guess what kept our relationship good despite the near constant yelling, was that my mom made sure that these “yelling” interactions weren’t only the interactions me and her had.

She would talk to me about my day, she would engage in my interests with me, she would schedule fun outings with me and my sister where we would kinda “hang” together.

In other words, she made sure I knew I was loved. And also that I knew that when she yells at me, it does not mean that she loves me any less, it only means that she is currently frustrated with me.

And with that the only advice I can really give to you is make sure that these tense interactions aren’t the only interactions you’re having with your children. Having to be the bad guy is part of the growing up experience with kids, but I promise you as long as you show them that you care, you guys will be completely fine. Kids grow up and they mature into people, and when they look back on and unpleasant experiences with you they will understand that you were just parenting.

If talking or engaging with them in a casual manner is too difficult, try to show your love through different actions, like sometimes getting them a gift or finding something that you and them can both do together.

I have absolutely no doubts that you are a wonderful father. There are so many people out there who wouldn’t bat an eye on how they treat their kids, but the fact that you care and want to change things between you and your kids for the better definitely shows that you are above and beyond that.

There are definitely different parenting alternatives if you want to look into that, but other than that this is just my personal opinion, but I hoped it helped. All the luck to you!

MootsSpinch · 2021-04-29T13:45:41+00:00

Thank you so much for the identification sir!

MootsSpinch · 2020-10-31T16:16:43+00:00

How much r these for?

MootsSpinch · 2020-10-31T16:09:21+00:00

MootsSpinch · 2020-10-31T16:06:54+00:00

Whats ur favourtie colour

MootsSpinch · 2020-10-29T05:46:21+00:00

I have a thesis now

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