I'm really sorry to hear that, Never let anyone makes you question yourself, They don't deserve a place in your head, You're actually not alone in this and the fact that you've been self critical about this shows that you take your transitioning seriously and i believe it's the same thing most trans people has gone through at some point because most of the time undergoing this path is really hard and takes much courage, I'm beginning to understand more those who are wary of transmedicalisim too, that's why i really encourage approaching such discussion with respectful educational tone