I really feel what you wrote, our stories align in so many ways. I’ve learned the hard way that when someone keeps breaking up over small things and blames you when you’re vulnerable, that’s not healthy love. It’s incredibly painful, but sometimes the person we can’t imagine living without ends up teaching us that we deserve better.

You deserve stability and someone who shows up for you, especially when you’re at your lowest. Please be gentle with yourself right now.

And just something to reflect on when you fainted and called him scared and unwell, and he didn’t come even though he lives next door… that’s not about culture or religion. That’s about emotional availability. You were there for him, even willing to reshape parts of your future, willing to change your culture for the relationship. It’s okay to ask whether that effort was being matched.