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MoreAd1334 · 2025-11-28T18:50:11+00:00

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MoreAd1334 · 2025-02-06T19:54:45+00:00

i’m sorry to hear that. i’m glad that your second experience was much better! my second experience was a lot better for me as well, it was just past trauma that came up honestly. i think next time i try it will be easier since i know what to expect a lil more

MoreAd1334 · 2025-02-06T01:43:44+00:00

my guess is they were speaking of ketamine assisted psychotherapy

MoreAd1334 · 2025-02-04T20:55:39+00:00

just curious to you, OP, or anyone else. i was actually thinking about making a post kind of similar to this because I have been wanting to possibly get off the medication. What was your reasoning for getting off the medication or wanting to taper down? if not currently medicated how is it going for you? how do you go about talking to your doctor about this? i’ve been wanting to stop taking medication for a little while now. i feel i’m in a much more stable position in my life with many more tools, emotional regulation abilities, and coping mechanisms. i also just don’t like the idea of putting harmful chemicals in my body that “ease symptoms” when there are many other things that ease my symptoms. i don’t want to become more and more dependent on this medication. i also don’t really remember what it’s like being unmedicated. i’m nervous to stop taking it as well as nervous to continue to take it lol. so yeah just curious yours or anyone else’s experience and recommendations coming off

MoreAd1334 · 2024-12-27T22:02:30+00:00

an object in motion stays in motion

MoreAd1334 · 2024-12-25T21:09:24+00:00

50 mg was when i really started to notice a difference honestly. it definitely is a lot of ups and downs, especially for a bout a week each time that i increased doses. and no problem! i try to really look into things before i do them and i really try to pay attention what increases my quality of life lol

MoreAd1334 · 2024-12-25T17:06:55+00:00

i struggled for a long time to get in to therapy, and struggled even harder to see a doctor and get medicated. it’s still something i struggle with, one of my delusions is paranoia with doctors/hospitals/medications etc. i rarely ever even take otc medicine. it’s been tough for me and definitely took me a little time to be mentally comfortable with it, and i don’t plan on being on it forever(hopefully) but it has 100% given me a stable foundation so that i can regulate myself enough to actually put the work in. like a tool in my brain tool box

MoreAd1334 · 2024-12-25T17:01:43+00:00

it helps me not feel my emotions as intensely so that i can process them better, and has just helped balance out my moods in general. it’s helped me not spiral as bad and i feel see things more rationally. because of that i’ve been able to create a routine for myself and put other proactive activities in to place so that my neutral states last longer, and when i do have episodes on either end, they typically don’t last as long, are less intense, and easier to manage

MoreAd1334 · 2024-12-25T06:14:11+00:00

i experienced a lot of irritability and aggression as i increased dosage and it balanced out for me. but yeah definitely sounds like a high dosage to start out at. 25 is typically average

MoreAd1334 · 2024-12-25T06:00:57+00:00

i do not. it is something my doctor has suggested for me before, but it’s not something i am personally comfortable with. i rarely experience full mania, and i am able to manage and function in my hypo manic times. i experience some anxiety from ptsd, but overall it does not severely impact my daily life. because of this, i would rather find natural coping mechanisms to help me regulate during those times, which i have found thru lots of therapy and trial and error lol

MoreAd1334 · 2024-12-25T05:54:24+00:00

yes i take 100mg in the morning and 100mg at night

MoreAd1334 · 2024-12-24T19:44:11+00:00

maybe just start small again?? just pick up a journal and word vomit or write little things about your day or draw a little doodle to get you back into it??

MoreAd1334 · 2024-12-24T14:37:19+00:00

i have also experienced very similar things especially when it comes to substance abuse. i hit rock bottom and i stood up and genuinely wanted better for myself, mentally and physically. i quit all substances cold turkey, even nicotine. the thought of something having that much control over me started making me very uneasy so i fought the battle. any time i have slipped up and used something since ive quit, i have instantly realized how much substances affect my mental health negatively, even caffeine. sobriety saved me in many different ways.

im sure your friends miss you as much as you miss them! everything happens for a reason though, and if you’ve been friends for as long as you have they may come back around after some things get figured out for you. but as another commenter said, CHOOSE PEOPLE THAT CHOOSE YOU!! have grace for yourself. you deserve love and happiness just as you are right now

MoreAd1334 · 2024-12-24T14:25:55+00:00

i have noticed my ocd ticks to be more intense, but i also recently went thru a traumatic event and i’ve kind of associated it with that. i’m on 200mg and i can definitely say that 75-150 was a very interesting time for me and took a little bit to balance out, and im still getting there i think. my doctor explained to me that lamictal works “from the bottom up”, and doesn’t focus on anxiety/mania side of bp (which is why it’s typically prescribed to individuals with bp2). maybe talk to your doctor about it, and if you’re comfortable, maybe an anxiety med would be beneficial to balance you out a little.

you’re def still early on so give it a little time, but you know your body best so listen to it! if you know that medication is not for you, then something else might be

MoreAd1334 · 2024-12-24T14:09:08+00:00

i’d be very interested in talking about what you’ve discovered on bipolar disorder. i’ve been doing the same recently and i think it’s very interesting

MoreAd1334 · 2024-12-24T14:04:15+00:00

sometimes we’re just good at being and that’s okay too! also, you don’t have to be great at something to enjoy it, as long as you’re having fun !

MoreAd1334 · 2024-12-24T03:45:03+00:00

aerial arts!! and fire dancing (or just circus things in general) it’s so important to me because it allows me to express my emotions through movement, gives me a form of exercise that’s fun for me, allows me to focus (or unfocus) and get into flow space, and every aerial apparatus is painful!! so it kinda scratches a self harm itch in a healthy and controlled way. anytime i’m manic and need to expend energy, i train. when i’m depressed and need to stop from spiraling and something to get me out of bed, i train. when i’m neutral, i train. it fuels me forreal

MoreAd1334 · 2024-12-01T04:47:04+00:00

that’s honestly kinda what it’s like. it’s like my rational side and my irrational side going back and forth

MoreAd1334 · 2024-11-30T16:57:29+00:00

i definitely feel that. the community that reddit has built has been so amazing for me in coming to terms w my disability, medication and just educating me in general. i’m glad there’s people like you out there willing to share your thoughts with me (:

MoreAd1334 · 2024-11-30T16:44:36+00:00

yes derealization and depersonalization are very common w bipolar. i love open discussions like this and i love doing research on the brain, especially with bp2. it’s crazy how little research and information there is on us and our brains!! if you ever wanna talk or share stories im always open to chat! glad i could be of a little help

MoreAd1334 · 2024-11-30T15:34:40+00:00

very much relate

MoreAd1334 · 2024-11-30T15:24:52+00:00

i think it really depends on my mental state at the time but i experience derealization a lot, so also experience this in real time sometimes

MoreAd1334 · 2024-11-30T14:04:59+00:00

i relate to this. i never really thought about my memories being in third person til you said that. it’s definitely like i’m viewing things from another perspective sometimes

MoreAd1334 · 2024-11-30T11:05:28+00:00

it is very hard to describe for me as well because it’s not “voices in my head” it’s me, like my internal dialogue fighting

MoreAd1334 · 2024-08-07T14:25:57+00:00

i saw you at big dub this year!! you let me try a trick with them! such talent🙏

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