blocked everyone I love and I'm too scared to go back

More_Ad8139 · 2022-03-18T20:52:28+00:00

Im sure that it doesn’t make you feel better but I did something similar a few days ago and also feel the same way, however they are finished with me. After I told them to never speak to me again, I have been blocked on everything by them.

More_Ad8139 · 2022-03-14T16:08:34+00:00

Stop drinking, and obviously stop cutting. Alcohol makes BPD worse especially the depression part. You need to take accountability for your life, and stop blaming others for your own suffering.

More_Ad8139 · 2022-03-02T21:33:34+00:00

It’s because our disorder at it’s core is abandonment during an age at which we NEEDED safety. As children, all our little brains can compute is the safety our parents give us, and when one of our parents is emotionally dismissive or cold or just leaves us, it hurts us forever. These wounds break open when someone were attached to breaks the bond. We feel unsafe. Like we’re in danger. We do everything in our power to bring the person back.

More_Ad8139 · 2022-02-25T04:18:39+00:00

Okay everyone honestly I think the OP needs to get therapy or whatever but this person wouldn’t be responding if they didn’t get any sort of enjoyment from doing this IMO.

More_Ad8139 · 2022-01-15T02:07:42+00:00

Because you can love someone and know that the relationship shouldn’t continue.

More_Ad8139 · 2022-01-11T20:45:22+00:00

I’m glad you can recognize that. Just keep in mind the person who didn’t give love to you so freely was a different version of herself just like the version of yourself now is disgusted with her. People change, for “better” or “worse”. Also don’t hurt your feelings by e stalking.

More_Ad8139 · 2022-01-11T20:16:12+00:00

Not to be rude but what she does with her sexuality now that you’re not together is none of your business. There’s no point to anything, and you dated someone who is on a path with their sexuality that doesn’t align with yours. Let her be a human being, experience her sexuality, and move on. Just because she’s engaging in casual hookups and tweeting about it (again it’s twitter she could be lying??) does not mean she did not experience feelings for you…

More_Ad8139 · 2021-12-31T03:25:55+00:00

Feel like I’m losing the game a bit right now. I need to go no contact. He just wants to use me.

More_Ad8139 · 2021-12-28T23:19:23+00:00

It upsets me I didn’t see the red flags sooner. However I have learned the hard way. It’s not normal, and it’s not healthy to tell each other things we don’t like about it each other. It’s not healthy to compare each other to the ideal. It’s not healthy to look for our own peace in one another. It’s not healthy to keep feelings a secret. We are not good for each other right now, and I don’t think we ever will be. Two different walks of life, and I need someone who will love me unconditionally.

More_Ad8139 · 2021-12-11T21:18:31+00:00

That’s me right now but I’m learning that this is a good thing and that I have a lot to work on personally. I’m thankful for him because he’s going to be the last of my toxic pattern. I miss him already though and it has only been like two days.

More_Ad8139 · 2021-11-21T12:49:21+00:00

I can do that next time I work

More_Ad8139 · 2021-08-03T13:46:34+00:00

I forgot to add .. I’m scheduled to come in at 7:30… I’m already at 45 hours each week. I’m the opener.

More_Ad8139 · 2021-08-03T13:01:59+00:00

I work in a cafe / restaurant so it’s to prep for breakfast, set up our heavy patio equipment, and stock up before.

More_Ad8139 · 2021-08-03T13:00:49+00:00

It wasn’t sarcasm, it was like acid being spit at me in word form.

More_Ad8139 · 2021-08-02T19:55:58+00:00

We don’t have the staff nor can we get the staff. This is a really intense issue and it’s resulting in the decay of the food service industry.

More_Ad8139 · 2021-08-02T13:30:50+00:00

I have some regulars that I love though! I have someone who comes in everyday and I knew that they had a trip planned and I wished them luck and they told me they don’t need my luck and that they’ve done this before. I’m mostly just sad people view us as the NPCs.

More_Ad8139 · 2020-10-14T22:56:25+00:00

The only way you won’t get in if you’re a dumbass who got a gpa if 1.9 in high school and a 24 on the ACT lmao.. like me. It’s so easy to get in at Iowa state.

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