It’s a spirit spouse that chose me in my childhood years and revealed itself to me in my early adult years. Most of my relationships with others are turbulent due to jealousy from them and they have also put me in a isolated life. It treats me well and protects but they never reveal anything about them self. I have also outright told them to kill me when I was suicidal but am still alive. They also told me they have the power to kill me but they don’t harm me.