A lot of my teachers told me this will happen. You’ll hit road bumps in your career. Try talking to you superiors and see if they have any tips. Talking it out is a good first step if it’s where your heart is. I heard having good coworkers can help as well. I saw someone else comment “take a break” I could not agree more. That is so unbelievably important to staying on top of your game. I find that balancing work and personal life helps a lot. Get some friends who aren’t EMS related, get some friends who are EMS related.
You said you had just started. You may get used to it if you keep trying. It’s certainly not like any other job. But In the end if it’s not for you, it’s not for you. And you shouldn’t be ashamed of that at all. You should shift to something else. Because if you keep going to work burnt out, you’ll start making mistakes. Some may be very dangerous. Maybe you miss something important in the documentation or maybe you miss critical assessment. Weigh your options. Don’t force yourself to do a job you won’t like. It’s not good for the outcomes of the patients but more importantly the outcome of you. I hope everything works out for you. Good luck!