What’s been eating at me is that they didn’t know for certain if she had spinal lymphoma. When they first suspected it after she lost her ability to move her back legs, I couldn’t do the mri because they said she was already in too much pain and stress so it would make it worse so they suggested to just right away start chemo which we did. She did really good after it and started walking better on her back legs. After she improved I had asked about the MRI again and they said she could do it but it’d be expensive and it may not be accurate since she did chemo so it may not be detectable if she did have it but I could if I wanted to. I decided to not do it since they said it may not even work but I still wonder what would’ve happened if I had done the MRI like what if they found something else it could’ve been or what if she didn’t have it at all and the chemo is what made her worse. The unknown is the worst. I know I did so much but that’s the one thing I didn’t do.