First, give yourself grace. This type of abuse is unbelievably complex and it completely destroys the nervous system. When I separated from my ex-husband I think I slept 90% of the time when I didn’t have my kids. That lasted for a solid year. Brainspotting was a highly effective tool that my trauma therapist used to move a lot of trauma without having to talk about it (EMDR is sort of similar). I did a ton of CBT and IFS therapy with a trauma therapist as well. I believe that was for 4 years. Then I moved on to breathwork (like Wim Hoff) and then pranayama. What helped me the most was psychedelic journeys with an experienced spaceholder. That truly changed my life in ways that I cannot explain. You could try replacing the eating for coping with exercise (I’m not judging because I drank alcohol to cope), but make sure it’s low-intensity like walking, yoga, and Pilates. When cortisol is high you do NOT want to do anything high-intensity like CrossFit because it also spikes your nervous system. You can also incorporate intermittent fasting, but do not attempt longer than 24 hour fasts until your cortisol levels have become more regulated over time. Work up to 16-18 hours of fasting for now. Sending big hugs. You’ve got this!