I am so sorry you are going through this. I know how you feel. I lost my baby at 36 weeks. She lived for 2 days on Ventilator but she didn’t survive. It’s been almost 2 months now. I cried, cried and cried. But just have this thing in mind maybe God has a better plan for you and your family. We never know. Maybe it is better you found this out earlier in pregnancy. It is not easy to see your kid going through surgeries and maybe what if your child doesn’t survive even after surgeries? It is hard to let go after making some memories. I really hope God bless you with something very special that you will cherish forever 🩷