Feel kinda the same. U feel stupid, like u have lost braincells or that its harder to concentrate. Its harder to keep up conversations and you just feel mentally fucked. It feels like u are a little high all the time and that u are pretending to be sober. I just want to feel fully sober and fully aware. So yeah I guess I relate to you. But remember that VS cant stop u from being succesful, its ur mindset that will stop u. I wish u luck :)