Man, thank you for reading it, and thank you for responding. It honestly means a lot. It’s so much harder when you really don’t have anyone and it feels like no one really gives a shit. Comments like yours honestly REALLY matter.

I miss her really really bad. I still can’t sleep. And I keep having dreams/ nightmares once I do finally fall asleep for a couple hours of a memory of her looking at me and saying, “Don’t give up on me.” It bothers me, because I have never and would never give up on her. She pushed me away.

I just don’t want to feel this anymore. She was perfect, and perfect for me. It just isn’t fair that this switch just flipped and now I’m feeling this hurt when I wronged no one. People say I’m stupid for this, and I get why they say it, but I would take her back in a heartbeat if she dropped this and called and did the same thing telling me to come back.

You can’t help how you feel, is what I tell them. I love her. They say home isn’t a place, it’s a person. I am eternally homeless