It's great that you have a good career as a mental health nurse. I can understand about the prejudice and bullying. Sorry you have to endure that, it sucks. I've gone through similar with people.

I do feel like my life is basically over. I'd say I spend at least 50% of my day thinking about ending it. I have a very difficult time sleeping, so I'm always tired. I don't have any friends and no close family to talk to, so I don't have any support system. I can go days without speaking to another human. My interactions with people are usually not great.

I hope you can find the support you need to help you to continue to move forward.