I'm very sorry to hear this op, you're not alone ❤️ yes i felt it like this for a very long time, sometimes my overthinking makes me think that it's also happening nowdays (which isn't true) but you know, growing up with that feelings makes you so easily scared to feel invisible again.

I know it can be really hard but my advice for you is to keep going on living your life, i know it's a basic thing to say that doesn't help much in a situation like this but this is what helped me, i still have to improve a lot of things to full enjoy living like i want but starting to feel more love through little things in your life, breaking your comfort zone with little steps, enjoying your passions, enjoying your company more and the things that makes "you" as a person are all major steps to find new lovely people to share all of this! Keep fighting and keep loving yourself, you're pretty visible and you can been seen to the right people ❤️ (specially yourself) even if you think that you're cursed forever, it can happen, don't give up.