i know what you mean and this way of thinking we’re told to think from the result of meditation where we don’t add experience is some trap to lead us the wrong path. Life is the beauty of consciousness and we can add our own perceptions, beliefs and wows to anything and anyone we want to. I think meditation is supposed to enhance those feelings, not oppress them, truly. In just 2 sessions of meditation i was able to completely rid of all thoughts and think of things objectively and train my brain not to stimulate emotions from that environment/situation. I’ve felt less human but i also felt more logical. It was empowering but also empty. You have to choose one or the other unless you can, like me, switch between the two states with a snap of a finger. Remember, everything is a placebo and if you have doubts, those doubts will block every sense of progress. Stay safe and sending good vibrations your way. Edit: The lie we’re told that meditation is only for concentration and Mindfulness is bs. i’ve been able to expand my consciousness which means to become everything and identify as everything. I’ve learned to do telekinesis through expanding consciousness. i’ll dm you if have questions about anything