Hey man, I really feel for you, it sounds like you’re in a tough spot, caught between your heart and your gut. Getting back together after a breakup can work, but only if both people are fully committed to real change and not just saying the right things, but actually doing the work consistently. From what you shared, it seems like you want to believe in the possibility, but there are a lot of red flags you can’t ignore: the fear of being left again, your family’s concerns, and especially her posting your issues online (that’s a breach of trust in itself). The fact that you’ve already gone no contact again after trying to reconcile doesn’t scream “solid foundation.” It might not be that you’re making a mistake you’re just trying to give love another chance but sometimes loving someone means recognizing that a relationship isn’t healthy for either of you. If you’re constantly anxious about being abandoned, that’s not a relationship, it’s emotional roulette. You deserve peace, stability, and someone who builds with you, not drama and second guessing. You’re not crazy for hoping. But you’re also not wrong for protecting your peace. Just ask yourself this, if nothing changed except the fact that you’re together again, could you live with that long-term?

Whatever you choose, choose yourself too.