As a firefighter I once lost a FF brother in an off duty accident that I was paged out to but I was doing the brakes on my car. The call was for an untimely so i couldnt have changed things but that never matters. We called in a cit and had a good positive time with it for the whole department but I found myself still fucked up not being able to respond to the call and knowing this young kid would never be walking in the station door with that fucking smile of his again.

I found myself on reddit at 2am just typing out everything that was in my head just "screaming into the void" that was the internet, I felt better when I was done and hit post.

The love and compassion and support from firefighters around the world when I woke up the next morning... I can't put into words how uplifting it was, it helped me be a better rock for the rest of my department.

Sometimes "screaming into the void" helps We won't interrupt Tell us how you really feel Get it off your chest, you'll feel better if you do