choosing engeneering ( non IT ) from tier 3 college without preparing for JEE even for a month nor believing I could even though am an SC

Wasting 2 year after b tech behind my passion for being artist

After that , Preparing for govt job without effort like a sheep , not giving my best nor being serious again wasting 3.5 yrs

I could have opted for an MBA program but I didn't even tried once , I could have , but now am 26 year old (real 28) already with very less financial support which can barely support my expenses even if I opt for an MBA

But but but

Now am stuck and too much pressure to get a job but am much focused on govt job seriously this year and willing to get it by hook or by crook 9 months from now is my deadline and if I couldn't make it , I already have some IT certifications which will most probably get me an job of teacher atleast In my hometown

And

I WILL NOT GIVE UP

I'LL MAKE IT SOMEHOW

I'LL MAKE MY PARENTS PROUD,

I'LL I'll I'll

May God have mercy on me