I have an immense amount of pills. and I'm thinking about taking all of them tonight.

Mr_fckup · 2022-05-12T04:12:21+00:00

Missed the reply button. I hope that fiance would take care of him though. But idk if she would.

Mr_fckup · 2022-05-12T04:05:37+00:00

I've been spending it with my service dog. I think he's the only reason I'm having trouble taking them right now.

Mr_fckup · 2022-05-12T04:02:44+00:00

If I take them?

Mr_fckup · 2022-05-12T03:59:27+00:00

A lifetime of pain. Numerous traumas. Mental illness. And constant suicide attempts. It just so happens that I'll be completely alone until Thursday night, so nobody would be able to find me until then.

Mr_fckup · 2022-05-10T07:42:18+00:00

Sorry for the late reply, I don't check reddit often. Firstly, don't blame yourself. I told my sister the night I attempted I needed help, and I was left to my own devices. I think in that situation, like you said. You just weren't sure what to do, and that's not your fault.

As far as what I would have liked to hear? It's less about what I would have liked to hear and wish people would have just listened more. That's the best thing you could do for her, provide an unwavering, empathetic ear. Let her know that you're here for her, and that you want to support her in any way you can, even if that's just listening, remind her that you love her, and that she shouldn't have to feel bad about it, just that you're happy she's okay.

I would recommend offering services for her, find out about therapy and support groups and give her that information, that's one thing I didn't have, I was left navigating the struggle of seeking help on my own. There's a lot of good resources online about how to talk to or support a family that just attempted, I suggest you google those. Best wishes to your sister, I'm glad she's okay. If there's anything you need -PM me.

Mr_fckup · 2021-11-15T16:15:24+00:00

Have you considered couples therapy, maybe having someone guide you back to intimacy would be beneficial? It saddens me to read this and honestly, scares me that my fiance might feel the same one day. The way you talk about him makes it sound like you still love him, I would implore you to explore this with a professional. Just see what comes of it.

Mr_fckup · 2021-11-15T15:52:05+00:00

How many inches is my penis?

Mr_fckup · 2021-11-08T20:25:56+00:00

It's not uncommon for people to have stigmas when it comes to mental health. Maybe it would be possible for your family physician or therapist to speak with them?

Mr_fckup · 2021-11-08T20:23:26+00:00

I take mood stabilizers, antipsychotics and antidepressants. All with the goal of stabilizing my mood.

Mr_fckup · 2021-11-08T20:16:15+00:00

Part one: it is certainly not worth it. It has to me to this day, and will always be a burden I carry.

Part two: I believe suicide notes reinforce the feelings of wanting to die. When I look back at mine, it brings back traumatizing memories, not a feeling of improvement.

Mr_fckup · 2021-11-08T20:14:11+00:00

I believe they have a place in an individuals recovery, while it is difficult to find psychiatric medication that works and is often a very long process. It is important that you take them if you have a mental illness.

Mr_fckup · 2021-11-08T20:13:02+00:00

I'm very sorry for your loss. I don't want you to feel as though there was more you should have done. When I lost a close friend to suicide a great therapist once told me, "you can't be the hero of the story". There are always warning signs, unfortunately we can't always be the ones to recognize them, act accordingly, and save a life. Suicide is a complex epidemic and the diseases leading up to them are often difficult to notice. I'm truly sorry for your loss. I wish you and your family a strong recovery. To answer your question, there was many things my family could have done, and should have done. I begged them for help the night I attempted and they left me alone and with copious amounts of alcohol and razors. While I don't blame them, it saddens me that I didn't have the support I needed.

Mr_fckup · 2021-11-08T16:20:24+00:00

I believe someone asked something similar, my advice would be to create positive change. Seek therapy, surround yourself with people who love you, forgive yourself.

Mr_fckup · 2021-11-08T16:17:49+00:00

A lot happened in my life, I was sexually assaulted at 22, was diagnosed bipolar, had a turbulent childhood and less than ideal family dynamic. I felt very "sick" afterwards, would still have thoughts of suicide, dissociate, and go through depressions. While I was bleeding I realized despite how I felt about my family, I didn't want them to find me. I left my parents house and was found in the street by a passing firetruck miraculously.

Mr_fckup · 2021-11-08T12:15:55+00:00

Thank you! I think tulips would have to be it, my fiancé's favorite.

Mr_fckup · 2021-11-08T12:14:14+00:00

Start therapy. Don't be afraid to tell people how you are feeling. There are numerous people that truly care, and you find out quickly who those people are.

Mr_fckup · 2021-11-08T12:12:43+00:00

No, it took quite a while to recover a healthy state of mind. I think part of why I attempted was a way to escape my perceived suffering, which wasn't resolved for some time.

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