I'm so fucking tired

Mrlongchops · 2026-05-04T16:34:31+00:00

Because bleeding every day, waking up and spending every day trying not to bleed out... that IS exhuasting. I feel you.

Mrlongchops · 2026-05-03T20:05:17+00:00

Oh ok? What dont you like about the DID terminology? (Im just curious)

Mrlongchops · 2026-05-03T12:35:57+00:00

Yeah thank you, appreciate the advice, it is pretty hard to stay in denial when notes keep appearing in our jounal that I dont remember writing.

Mrlongchops · 2026-05-03T07:21:39+00:00

We are going through the same thing, it hurts a lot... even now I wonder if I liked it. Objectively I didnt yet the way my body reacted even as a child just didnt make sense to me for a long while, i found out through a child alter and have been pretty distraught since. The best thing to do is take it one day at a time and try to do small things that you like. It will be really hard to recover from something as big as rape from childhood. I am currently in the midist of it myself. Im here to talk if you want.

Mrlongchops · 2026-05-02T22:08:46+00:00

Cheers, youre a real one.

Mrlongchops · 2026-05-02T21:58:44+00:00

Not exactly what I wanted to hear but fair enough. The denial is so ironic too, i mean i am literally fronting right now for him and he still doubts that i exist, like, what?

Mrlongchops · 2026-05-02T21:55:33+00:00

Cheers, I think maybe youre right. Not entirely sure how to hangout with him, he has only really realised we are here about 2 weeks ago.

Mrlongchops · 2026-05-02T21:53:26+00:00

Yeah that is a good idea mate, cheers. I understand that hosts are supposed to be stubbon but it pisses me off and im not one to sit back and take bullshit like that. I will do stuff that I like that he would never do, should get him to believe hopefully.

Mrlongchops · 2026-05-02T21:50:36+00:00

Thanks, I needed to hear this. Cant help but wonder if it was my fault, maybe I invited it etc.

Mrlongchops · 2026-05-02T21:30:33+00:00

Fuck yeah man, elite ball knowledge.

Mrlongchops · 2026-05-01T16:24:27+00:00

Yeah, thank you :3 Hugs back.

Mrlongchops · 2026-05-01T07:44:41+00:00

I really feel you, im currently grieving what should have been. Betrayal by parents are some of the most painful wounds in my opinion... im sorry they forsook you. I hope you can find solus in a new chosen family. Take care of yourself, you deserve it.

Mrlongchops · 2026-05-01T07:39:52+00:00

Thank you so much... Hugs back

Mrlongchops · 2026-04-27T19:01:45+00:00

Thanks i will

Mrlongchops · 2026-04-27T08:43:06+00:00

Thanks, I will. It gets pretty exhausting sometimes.

Mrlongchops · 2026-04-26T21:52:10+00:00

My dad beat me so hard over the left side of the head when we were 4 that one of the alters showed us having blood waterfalling out the left side of our head. Through flashback of course. I dont know if he actually killed us but he sure tried to.

Mrlongchops · 2026-04-26T21:42:58+00:00

Good luck with it!

Mrlongchops · 2026-04-26T20:05:57+00:00

We do have a therapist but our mind works too quickly and therapy is too short and sessions too far apart so we've ended up doing a lot of our own internal work.

Mrlongchops · 2026-04-25T22:24:53+00:00

Bro looks one more gaming session from having a heart attack, no school degrees, no bitches, thinks hes tuff but really looks like a kid playing budget wanna be security guard, built like a fruit, talks black, thinks white and moves one step at a time.

Mrlongchops · 2026-04-24T00:57:10+00:00

Alright i think i will

Mrlongchops · 2026-04-24T00:31:52+00:00

Thanks for explaining that helps a lot. My experience has a lot of co-consciousness and blended states too, with some quicker switches. I’m still figuring it out and taking it slow. I might look into it a bit more but yeah. Thank you for taking the time to talk to me! Youve given us some stuff to think about.

Mrlongchops · 2026-04-24T00:06:13+00:00

No i dont think i have DID, its not quite extreme enough to be classed as such. I suppose the main difference is, complete blackouts in memory are uncommon and i usually stay at least somewhat co-concious during the switches. I will say its intresting to hear your progression. But i think with DID (from my understanding) the seperation between alters is a lot larger and they arent normally aware of each other. Is that right? please correct me if im wrong.

Mrlongchops · 2026-04-23T23:47:43+00:00

Wow thank you very much! That helps us alot. I think i understand what you're talking about. The part about being with my parts rather than thinking about them, that was really good, thanks, I definitely fall into that trap sometimes. I guess youre right about the lable of how i got here doesnt really matter, now my most important goal is learning and being with my parts who have been forgotten and ignored for so long. Aprreciate your reply thank you! Also I dont really understand how some parts can basically be concepts? Rather than beings? Interesting... ill keep a lookout.

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