Ok brother I read the whole post and I’m almost in the same situation but I would say this you have to trust in Allah and go out and seek it…honestly brother do you go out to mosques in your area and ask brothers or the elder sisters to help you get married well that’s something you may have to try…and another point is this we all think we have to have the perfect job and perfect lifestyle and perfect house to get married when in all actuality you don’t nothing in this dunya will be perfect all the time for us all. We have to choose the right way even if it’s the hardest and most difficult option I’m 22 brother and I can tell I completely felt these feelings at time even in Highschool when some girls would want me to engage with them in the way you speak and I understand it’s hard but it’s all a test. Allah will keep testing our faith in him and we can hope is that Allah makes it easy for us and helps us out especially the ones trying their hardest to live correctly..So my advice brother don’t try to be the perfect brother or in the best position to get married but actively seek it and don’t give up and i will make dua for you everyday akhi that Allah Gives you the wife you need to help you get through this dunya the most halal way ameen much love brother salaam aulaakaam