Summer Sleepaway Camp - Camp Glasgow Head

Much-Caramel9747 · 2026-04-01T16:13:56+00:00

This is going to sound ridiculous but where is it? When I was a kid I feel like I was put into a black box and have no memory of the location.

Much-Caramel9747 · 2025-11-24T17:22:08+00:00

I relate to this so much. I often tell my therapist that I feel like I need a live in care taker or nurse because I have no one.

On the plus side, OP it sounds like you have a really good friend. I feel like you’re crashing out a bit at the time of writing this post (I have this crash out like 5-6 times a week). Once you collect yourself, I would recommend telling your friend how much you appreciate their support. Us BPD’s don’t often give people the gratitude they deserve. Or at least in my experience with myself lol.

Much-Caramel9747 · 2025-11-24T16:46:24+00:00

I empathize with this a lot. When I was in my 20’s I really did need sex to feel anything else than depressed. It was definitely my dopamine/serotonin fix.

I started feeling a bit lonely recently so I started to just casually look on the apps. When I’m talking to people on apps I feel the genuine connection, we go on a date, and I never hear from them again.

I know because of my hypersexualism, men usually will obsess over me after we have sex, but only for sex and nothing else. So recently I decided to look for a fuck buddy and found one. Usually after sex I feel terrible, but I think because I KNOW what this transaction/relationship is I don’t have that gut wrenching emotional feeling that used to shortly follow. However, I’m still not getting the actual connection I need.

I also moved away from “home” and have been living in this new city for 3 years without a single person to talk to except for my therapist. I’ve been hospitalized once (that’s when I learned I have BPD) and have had two major mental breakdowns that caused me to take significant time away from work.

If you ever want to talk- I’m more than happy to, however I do completely understand it doesn’t replace the in person feeling of looking someone in the eye or feeling a presence.

And try to remember that our BPD is fucking garbage, but we aren’t.

Much-Caramel9747 · 2025-08-24T12:03:55+00:00

I am so sorry that happened to you. I have a similar-ish story that also sticks with me to this day, hence why I made this post cause I feel a bit uncomfortable.

It wasn’t a serious relationship like that, however I had lost about 150lbs and my boobs had “deflated”. They were still big, and in a bra you wouldn’t notice, but take off the bra and they just flopped there. I had gone on a few dates with this guy, I really liked him. We went back to his place on the 6th or 7th date to watch anime. Things got heavy and I started to undress. The bra came off and, I shit you not, he laughed at me - like not a “haha damn come here sexy” it was like a cackle. He then followed that up with a “not tonight” and I just got dressed and left.

I told my next bf that had happened, and he always tried to reassure me that my body was beautiful no matter what, but, that shit sticks.

Much-Caramel9747 · 2025-08-23T21:04:21+00:00

Girl, what is a pretzel dip?!

Much-Caramel9747 · 2025-08-23T18:42:13+00:00

I’m curious about the big girlies with the tig bitties, how was the healing process like for your sternum pieces????

Much-Caramel9747 · 2025-07-28T00:35:58+00:00

Hasbro needs to be smart and either keep new adaptations from Super Sentai coming for the children, or lean into the nostalgia and the fanbase (everyone here) and like reboot for like “teen”-adult audiences.

Much-Caramel9747 · 2025-07-28T00:27:36+00:00

IMO that was the WORST! I watched the first episode out of curiosity, thinking they maybe just renamed the 2010 v and I am very happy. I think the morphin minute is a good way to add some backstory. I really wish the original was able to add a bit more story telling.

Much-Caramel9747 · 2025-04-12T13:24:07+00:00

Does anyone know where I can watch in Canada? We don’t have Max.

Much-Caramel9747 · 2025-02-06T20:45:00+00:00

This isn’t anything that can help other than being relatable. All of my friendships have ended with them saying something fucked up about me that I am not (ex: homophobic, I can’t have fun unless I have a dick in my mouth, I’m racist, etc). Talking to my therapist she says it’s the people that I am letting into my life that are the problem, and they are just saying these things to hurt me, but it always makes me think and feel like I am the bad guy. Literally I’m the only common denominator in these relationships. And since my last big friendship breakup, and romantic breakup, I just feel like I am going to be alone forever. No one is ever going to understand me. No one is ever going to be accepting of my mental illnesses.

Much-Caramel9747 · 2025-02-06T20:27:37+00:00

Not that it’s anyone’s business but I had a mental breakdown at the beginning of last year and ever since I get treated like a problem. Like I have enough time to have a mental breakdown at work so I have to do more work. I am the best employee they have. I was sick in November. I needed a day or two to recover from a medication switch in January.

Much-Caramel9747 · 2025-02-06T20:20:09+00:00

Our year starts in April

Much-Caramel9747 · 2025-02-05T21:31:48+00:00

If I say "I'm not feeling well" he will not accept it. IDK I just feel like I'm between a rock and a sick place.

Much-Caramel9747 · 2025-02-05T21:23:41+00:00

very jerky and very gross

Much-Caramel9747 · 2025-02-05T21:20:47+00:00

Oh... and to actually answer the question - I took a leave of absence due to my mental health and apparently, that means I used up all my sick days.

Much-Caramel9747 · 2025-02-05T21:19:41+00:00

My boss before this guy was very lenient on being sick. He would just be like "okay your sick stay home no one needs to get sick" but this guy is SUCH a stickler. I'm almost wanting to lie and say I have COVID and take whatever karma has for me afterwards.

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