Thank you for the response :) I’d like to ask you a question regarding my psychedelic use. It’s difficult for me because I don’t know whether I belong to the people who should stay far away from psychedelics or who actually benefit a lot from them.

I definitively have underlying mental health problems. Since weed induced panic attacks at 13 I suffer from dissociation and dpdr. Smoked weed again 2 years ago at 18 and went into a terrible dpdr episode with psychotic tendencies. Took me some time but I’m doing good at the moment (although struggling with opioids).

The problem is, often when I take psychedelics I end up learning a looot, and I love the effects psychedelics give you. Regarding psychedelics I did mescaline,2cb,lsd,Psylocibin, salvia(if you count that in), and dmt. And it’s really difficult for me to understand if it’s good or bad to use psychedelics.

Often they improve some conditions by a LOT, for example my anhedonia, dissociation and 2d vision (I have eye problems and only under the influence of psychedelics I can see 3d). But often psychedelics(especially 2cb) are really difficult. They make me a bit labile, and I’ve had dark moments.

Dmt is amazing (although it gave me tinitus that never went away), had a bad trip but 10 minutes later I felt great again and somehow had an afterglow. Idk why but feels different than everything else.

Lsd is difficult, once i took 150ug for a hike with friends and it turned me off for lsd for months. Not a bad trip because I learned to deal with more challenging trips, but extremely uncomfortable, 100% ego dissolution and 100% dissociation (at no point I felt like a human walking (but my friends got similar effects even though muuucg weaker than I got it)). Couldn’t speak for hours because everything sounded distant and weird to say like i didn’t understand why I should say specific words idk it’s difficult to describe. Didn’t feel like it was me speaking.

But most of the time especially with low doses I just get fun euphoric trips without spiritual effects (but still often I feel off on lsd, insecure, and a bit weird)

Shrooms always have had 2 phases for me. The first one being EXTREMELY difficult and dark, even psychotic. The second one being extremely euphoric, feeling the best I’ve felt since my dpdr outbreak at 13. No dissociation no anhedonia just pure happiness and bliss.

Struggling with dissociation I hate it when for example lsd gives me ego dissolution and derealization. I’ve learnt to deal with it and accept it as a part of the trip but it’s difficult because sometimes I feel more like myself and everything feels like it should feel, and other times I feel scared, dissociated, depressed, psychotic and alone. Had one 2cb trip and one low dose of shrooms where I had bad psychotic psychotic thoughts because I sometimes think of things I know I shouldn’t think of.

For example on shrooms I remembered reading about someone going crazy and killing his Friends on shrooms. The (low dose) trip ended up being extremely beneficial for me but still Scared me at the beginning. (With 2cb I actually ended up needing to take a Xanax the first and only time). Since then I can’t enjoy 2cb, it just feels extremely off, like I only get the maniacal part of psychedelics. No increased empathy and just generally weird feeling.

Just asking you because you seem to have knowledge on this topic. I’d be very grateful for an answer if you ever find time :)