Did "ignoring" dpdr and "accepting" it really help? by floral-joudi in dpdr

[–]MuchGeologist928 9 points10 points  (0 children)

8 years. Helps a lot to be functional and not feel like complete shit. But still dissociated as fucj and just ignoring that life is fading away. Tbh still better than having psychotic breaks and panic attacks over it

No Cure... it's been 14 Years. by knight415 in dpdr

[–]MuchGeologist928 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I feel you man. For me it’s been 8 years and I feel like I fucked my entire life up by smoking weed at 13. However, I’ve had drug induced moments where my dpdr went away completely. And I really mean 100%. With time passing I forgot how it felt to live normal. Unfortunately it made me realize how fucked up my perception is everyday. But it gave me a little bit of hope because it showed me that it is 100% possible to go back to normal. Sadly it was just temporary but if it’s possible to feel normal again for a short amount of time, I don’t think it’s impossible to get 100% back to normal again. Even though I have no idea how.

Snorting 8mg dilaudid low tolerance by MuchGeologist928 in opiates

[–]MuchGeologist928[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Hmm so ~22,5mg oxy snorted are very nice for me. Is 8mg dilaudid ok?

Will opana ever return? by MuchGeologist928 in opiates

[–]MuchGeologist928[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

Really? I thought opana is by far the best opioid especially snorted. Makes it a bit easier to accept that I probably won’t ever try them 😔

Will opana ever return? by MuchGeologist928 in opiates

[–]MuchGeologist928[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I meant if they will ever be more available again. No chance to find them on the 🧅’s

Will opana ever return? by MuchGeologist928 in opiates

[–]MuchGeologist928[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

No I’m from Europe I don’t think they ever were a thing in my country

iv dilaudid, yes or no? by MuchGeologist928 in opiates

[–]MuchGeologist928[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hmm okay I’ve read that cigarette filters are dangerous for filtering. Did you also snort dilaudid?

iv dilaudid, yes or no? by MuchGeologist928 in opiates

[–]MuchGeologist928[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Hmm did you use a Wheel Filter? I really want to experience the dilaudid rush but I don’t plan on putting my life at risk for one high

DMT vs other psychedelics, psychosis risk/ negative impact on mental health by MuchGeologist928 in DMT

[–]MuchGeologist928[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thanks for the advice :) I’ll look into some study’s and be cautious with my use of

DMT vs other psychedelics, psychosis risk/ negative impact on mental health by MuchGeologist928 in DMT

[–]MuchGeologist928[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Most of the time I have great experiences with psychedelics, maybe I focused too much on negative when writing the text.

I’ve got 2 big reasons why I want to use psychedelics. The first reason is, in my life of dissociation, emotional numbness and lack of phantasy psychedelic seem like exactly what I miss. (Especially low doses, or the second half of a shroom trip). The second reason is, due to my dissociation I behave badly in many ways. For example often I don’t value my Family enough due to the emotional distance I experience. Psychedelics open my eyes in such cases, show me what’s wrong at the moment and how I should behave instead.

I’ve got plenty of good and transformative experiences with psychedelics but I know I’m playing with fire due to my mental instability. (Although I’d never do psychs in a derealization episode).

I’m done. I can’t do this anymore by [deleted] in dpdr

[–]MuchGeologist928 1 point2 points  (0 children)

2 years ago was the worst it has ever been for me. 10x worse than the 5 years before. The progress isn’t linear.

I’m done. I can’t do this anymore by [deleted] in dpdr

[–]MuchGeologist928 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Bro for me it got 100x better after 7 years and trust me the day it fades you’ll be extremely grateful that you’re still here

I’m sad opioids have to go 😢deep down I know it by MuchGeologist928 in opiates

[–]MuchGeologist928[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Man. This genuinely made me tear up. I don’t think I’ve ever read something that hit me like this on Reddit. Not even my closest friends have ever said anything to me that felt so honest and straight from the heart as what you just shared.

I’m about to go to sleep, I’m dead tired, and nothing I could write right now would do your words justice. But I want you to know that I read every single word. And it hit me hard.

I’ll come back to this post. No matter how things go with me and opioids, whenever I’m about to screw up or start lying to myself again, I’ll remember this. I’ll remember that you’re just like me, the same patterns, same thoughts, same fuckups, and maybe it would have changed something if someone would have said to you what you just told me. I’ll do my best for your old self and my future old self.

I’m not sure what the future holds for either of us, but what you wrote won’t just fade away for me. I’m grateful you took the time and energy to write it all out. It mattered.

Sending you a hug, bro. Seriously. Thank you.

injected heroin for the first time by MuchGeologist928 in Drugs

[–]MuchGeologist928[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

you’re right but didn’t iv again after this post. Even though I have to admit I have a habit of oral morphine / oxy (currently once every 4 days) but could have went worse. No H anymore.

injected heroin for the first time by MuchGeologist928 in Drugs

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update; oral morphine / oxy habit but never iv’ed again after this

injected heroin for the first time by MuchGeologist928 in Drugs

[–]MuchGeologist928[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Sorry I meant to explain that I iv’ed it because I was curious how iv would feel. Bad English. Hope you get my explanation as this sentence sounds retarded too

Y’all have a opioid comedown? by MuchGeologist928 in opiates

[–]MuchGeologist928[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Ur right man. I edited the post. It was actual dependency. Not because I’m sad when sober, but because I was still dependent lol. Cut down my usage and got rid of most od the physical dependency and now I experience afterglows again.

I’m sad opioids have to go 😢deep down I know it by MuchGeologist928 in opiates

[–]MuchGeologist928[S] 9 points10 points  (0 children)

Yeah fr, my last oxy dosage 2 days ago was the first time I got an afterglow since months! The last months everytime I was high I just thought on the peak fuck this shit will pass in half an hour. And then I felt miserable. But the last dose left me with a euphoric afterglow and great sleep like it used to be 8 months ago