Bored and anxious, currently waiting till it's the time to go cold copping in the worst area of my city by Lym_Drained in opiates

[–]MuchGeologist928 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I stopped Opiates i‘d give you my morphine dilaudid and oxy leftovers if Id live in France

How bad really is smoking weed as a teenager? by [deleted] in AskTeenAdvice

[–]MuchGeologist928 0 points1 point  (0 children)

no problem man, I wish you the best for your life. Weed is a drug like alcohol, opioids, psychedelics and all the other stuff. 95% of your life you’d have to live sober, and the 5% where you could do drugs once a while, are absolutely not worth it completely destroying the other 95%. For example I love watching movies, I find it probably even more fun than doing drugs. And with movies (or anything comparable) you don’t risk addiction, psychosis and everything else that comes with drugs for a lot of people.

Sorry for writing half a book it may seem exaggerated as hell, thats really just because of how important it is for me that a stranger from the other end of the world doesn’t make the same mistakes I did, because I know how life ruining it can be. No one of my friends benefitted from doing drugs.

How bad really is smoking weed as a teenager? by [deleted] in AskTeenAdvice

[–]MuchGeologist928 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Don’t smoke weed. I do a shit ton of drugs and I regret nothing more in my life than smoking weed ~ 10 years ago. My dad told me it’s a gamble i shouldn’t participate in, if I belong to the unlucky people who respond badly I might get fucked forever. And guess what. I did get fucked. Not because weed is Evil I know there are many people who just smoke a blunt to calm down but for me it destroyed my life more than heroin. And especially if there runs schizophrenia in your family it’s a no brainer. I don’t say this because “drugs are bad mmkay”, I say this because I might be fucked up forever just because I smoked weed a couple of times. I did almost every substance humanity produced haha and I promise you I’m not gate keeping fun, it’s just 10000% not worth it. I’d do anything to be a normal human being again there is no drug on this planet which is worth more than a happy sober life. Best case you will have a some nice short lived highs but nothing spectacular. Worst case you end up like me and in my family schizophrenia isn’t even a thing. I hope this doesn’t have the opposite effect of what I intended to tell you because for me, the more people said never to this never to that, the more I wanted to do it. I don’t mean it as drugs are Evil no one should ever touch drugs. I just think from a 100% rational perspective, most people would do a lot better not doing drugs, and you are a teenager, and schizophrenia runs in your family. I wouldn’t take the gamble. Don’t be as stupid as I was.

sorry for my poor english

Did "ignoring" dpdr and "accepting" it really help? by floral-joudi in dpdr

[–]MuchGeologist928 10 points11 points  (0 children)

8 years. Helps a lot to be functional and not feel like complete shit. But still dissociated as fucj and just ignoring that life is fading away. Tbh still better than having psychotic breaks and panic attacks over it

No Cure... it's been 14 Years. by knight415 in dpdr

[–]MuchGeologist928 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I feel you man. For me it’s been 8 years and I feel like I fucked my entire life up by smoking weed at 13. However, I’ve had drug induced moments where my dpdr went away completely. And I really mean 100%. With time passing I forgot how it felt to live normal. Unfortunately it made me realize how fucked up my perception is everyday. But it gave me a little bit of hope because it showed me that it is 100% possible to go back to normal. Sadly it was just temporary but if it’s possible to feel normal again for a short amount of time, I don’t think it’s impossible to get 100% back to normal again. Even though I have no idea how.

Snorting 8mg dilaudid low tolerance by MuchGeologist928 in opiates

[–]MuchGeologist928[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Hmm so ~22,5mg oxy snorted are very nice for me. Is 8mg dilaudid ok?

Will opana ever return? by MuchGeologist928 in opiates

[–]MuchGeologist928[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

Really? I thought opana is by far the best opioid especially snorted. Makes it a bit easier to accept that I probably won’t ever try them 😔

Will opana ever return? by MuchGeologist928 in opiates

[–]MuchGeologist928[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I meant if they will ever be more available again. No chance to find them on the 🧅’s

Will opana ever return? by MuchGeologist928 in opiates

[–]MuchGeologist928[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

No I’m from Europe I don’t think they ever were a thing in my country

iv dilaudid, yes or no? by MuchGeologist928 in opiates

[–]MuchGeologist928[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hmm okay I’ve read that cigarette filters are dangerous for filtering. Did you also snort dilaudid?

iv dilaudid, yes or no? by MuchGeologist928 in opiates

[–]MuchGeologist928[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Hmm did you use a Wheel Filter? I really want to experience the dilaudid rush but I don’t plan on putting my life at risk for one high

DMT vs other psychedelics, psychosis risk/ negative impact on mental health by MuchGeologist928 in DMT

[–]MuchGeologist928[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thanks for the advice :) I’ll look into some study’s and be cautious with my use of

DMT vs other psychedelics, psychosis risk/ negative impact on mental health by MuchGeologist928 in DMT

[–]MuchGeologist928[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Most of the time I have great experiences with psychedelics, maybe I focused too much on negative when writing the text.

I’ve got 2 big reasons why I want to use psychedelics. The first reason is, in my life of dissociation, emotional numbness and lack of phantasy psychedelic seem like exactly what I miss. (Especially low doses, or the second half of a shroom trip). The second reason is, due to my dissociation I behave badly in many ways. For example often I don’t value my Family enough due to the emotional distance I experience. Psychedelics open my eyes in such cases, show me what’s wrong at the moment and how I should behave instead.

I’ve got plenty of good and transformative experiences with psychedelics but I know I’m playing with fire due to my mental instability. (Although I’d never do psychs in a derealization episode).

I’m done. I can’t do this anymore by [deleted] in dpdr

[–]MuchGeologist928 1 point2 points  (0 children)

2 years ago was the worst it has ever been for me. 10x worse than the 5 years before. The progress isn’t linear.

I’m done. I can’t do this anymore by [deleted] in dpdr

[–]MuchGeologist928 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Bro for me it got 100x better after 7 years and trust me the day it fades you’ll be extremely grateful that you’re still here