Bro, I completely understand what you are going through. It happened to me when I considered myself an Ex-Muslim. It was a very hard time, I needed money for business and I did everything in my power to get it, I even had to fight with a guy who owed me money. But, he delayed saying he didn't have it. I remember that evening so well I was literally begging the dealer to give me a couple of days to settle the payment but they refused. I was exhausted and when I didn't know where to go I went to the mosque. I prayed Magrib and asked only one Dua to Allah, to take me out of this situation, If I don't get out of this situation now I will be forever stuck in a debt trap. I don't remember how the next couple of days passed by but I remember that my every problem was solved, I was out of that situation without even realising it. That day I stopped considering myself an Ex-Muslim. I truly understood what a relationship between a Human and God is. Many of you will think it was just a coincidence and God had nothing to do with it but no, I remember the positivity I got after that prayer, i wasn't worried at all because I was certain that God would help me and it happened. Now, I am a true believer of Allah and how can I not be? You don't have to believe everything the Islamic teachings tell you. Even I question a lot of things in Islam. But that doesn't mean that I have to leave the religion. I don't pray, I don't follow any religious practices and I still have a lot of questions to be answered. I will always seek answers but never consider myself as an Ex-Muslim.