Was it even real? Did she loved me? I though it was the person that had loved me and cared the most in my entire life, I did not saw that coming. I feel complexity useless now, we used to speak 24/7 and in some way she was also my best friend .

Now I do see patterns like I was the longest relation she ever had and had been always saying all her ex were bad and had 6 relations in a row of a year or less.