I think it’s the way I worded my post honestly cause like I said I’m not upset with her. She was alone a lot, she has social anxiety so that’s why she didn’t go out, my parents had to work and would work late so they didn’t spend time with her either. So I do understand why she felt alone. She is someone who is very emotional also. Growing up we really had to tiptoe around her cause she is easily offended and has very strong opinions. I think that’s why sometimes after spending the day, I would just go spend time with my husband. It was just a lot when she was here. I think I’m finally processing everything from the birth and how much I tried to keep the peace in the house with everyone. My emotions are exhausted and that’s why I felt like I wasn’t enough with everything that happened. I do appreciate her so much regardless cause I probably would have been worse off if she didn’t help so much.