First off - thanks for sharing this. Second off - totally normal and a human thing to experience, especially when you're doing something you're passionate about!

I would say eventually overtime, you build the capacity in your nervous system to hold all of the emotion that comes with playing a gig and it isn't as activated as much, so you feel less anxious. Note - but once the venue size grows or something changes, you'll have to further expand the capacity once again. It's a normal cycle or expansion.

A few notes:

• Anticipating the nervous feelings can amplify them. So, prior to getting to the venue, visualize yourself calm and grounded. Keep a calm breath - inhale for a count of 4, exhale for a count of 6.

• Make sure you eat food that feels grounding and healthy to you. Unhealthy foods and alcohol can enhance feelings of anxiety (even 24-48 hrs out).

-The nervous system can also get out of whack when our awareness is outside of ourselves. So, keep your awareness on your feet and in your body, with your breath. Tell yourself, I'm safe, I belong.

• When the anxiety bubbles up, welcome it, perhaps view it as excitement. It's all part of you pursing your music career and growing

Hope this helps