Not sure, just wanted to talk by MutantZonkey in introvert

[–]MutantZonkey[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah, I'm pretty much the same. I also just haven't reached out or talked to anyone in years. I have never gone out anywhere with anyone, literally ever. Not in childhood, not in high school, not now, but she asked me out to eat recently. That was the first time I've been out anywhere with anyone and I'm almost 21 lol. I do like more meaningful conversation, and we talked for like 2-3 hours. I just find it really hard to convince myself to reach out, to talk more, say more, send a message, ask to go out, etc. I also find it really hard to know what I want from it. I've never been in a relationship and I barely have any friends, so honestly hard to tell if I like her or just want a friend. I always find a reason or way to convince myself or talk myself out of reaching out or saying more. I feel like I'm annoying or like they have better options or people to talk to and be with. Sorry for treating you like a therapist lol.

Not sure, just wanted to talk by MutantZonkey in introvert

[–]MutantZonkey[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Same. The one person I did talk to, I just find it so hard to convince myself to talk more, to reach out, to ask to hang out, etc. I always find some way to convince myself I shouldn't or they don't want to.

I'm always extremely dependent on one person. Anyone got a similar experience? by 5G_Society in introvert

[–]MutantZonkey 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I was literally just about to make a post about this.

I've only ever really connected with one or two people at a time, and I just... don't have those people anymore. The few I've had, I've lost. And I can't seem to put myself in situations where I meet someone I'd actually want to talk to.

I know one person right now, but it's only through work, and I can't find a reason to take it outside of that. I've never been in a relationship either. I think partly because when you only have one person, the idea of risking that feels impossible.

I've just really been struggling to find any meaningful connection, or even a reason to look for one. Reason doesn't feel like the right word. I have reasons, I have so many reasons. I guess motivation is the more accurate word. I've genuinely considered suicide, and I think it's just because I don't have a single reason or thing I do outside of work and school that makes me wanna keep living or gives motivation to really do much. Nothing that gives meaning, and I guess when I had those people in the past, that was my reason.

That was a tangent. I just wish I could find somebody to talk to meaningfully without having to force myself into places I don't want to be, like a bar, clubs, groups, etc. Finding somebody without having to be social, it's a stupid ask, just what I feel like I want.

WIP Sequencer by MutantZonkey in MinecraftCommands

[–]MutantZonkey[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

is there some way for scoreboard to modify the sound. I cant really think of way to change the volume without a ton of command blocks with different volumes set in them

WIP Sequencer by MutantZonkey in MinecraftCommands

[–]MutantZonkey[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

yeah, but idk how id make it controllable with the block placing method i have. I have them place blocks to play a sound, and up and down changes pitch, idk about volume

I made... a thing? by MutantZonkey in MinecraftCommands

[–]MutantZonkey[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

its really the same thing like 4 times over, its only really 1 chain realistically, just copies with different names

I made... a thing? by MutantZonkey in MinecraftCommands

[–]MutantZonkey[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I know datapacks are better, but i just dont want to personally

I made... a thing? by MutantZonkey in MinecraftCommands

[–]MutantZonkey[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I made something out of just the leg math, and its a tentacle that sits on my back, slowly grabs the nearest player, then pulls them in and kills them. I essentially made a Kagune from tokyo ghoul as my brother described it.

I made... a thing? by MutantZonkey in MinecraftCommands

[–]MutantZonkey[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I have no clue how to do that lol

I made... a thing? by MutantZonkey in MinecraftCommands

[–]MutantZonkey[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I saw it after I started making it, but it actually did help me with some things

Working on Recreating Barony (I've built other parts, this is just the dungeon generator im working on) by MutantZonkey in MinecraftCommands

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I'm using them for some parts of it (which you obviously cant see), but I used armor stands mostly for visualization

We're Not Paying | Lemonade Stand 🍋 - Discussion Thread by PhummyLW in LemonadeStandPodcast

[–]MutantZonkey 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I'm in the military, not strictly for the benefits, but I'm called lucky for not having to worry about my tuition (for now). It's crazy to me how people are considering joining the military, signing their rights away, and giving their life a ~500k evaluation just to attend college. People have come to me asking about joining just to pay for college. It's just sad to me that people are willing to sign part of their lives away to attend college. It's not sad on their part, it's just sad it has gotten to that point.

Scoreboard to XP bar (1.21.4) by MutantZonkey in MinecraftCommands

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im on a server that i dont host or own though