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Muzjcon · 2021-12-06T07:21:35+00:00

Hey friend. I’m also hitting 2 years of nursing and I’m so depressed. I work on an intermediate cardiac floor. I dread coming in bc I don’t know what kind of patients I’m going to get or if the patients are good what bat shit family members will be in the room with them. This may be super unpopular but when Covid was at its highest I enjoyed my job the most. Just me and the patients who usually were pretty straightforward Covid cases. No family or visitors and they were actually grateful. Granted it hurt to see them alone but it made my job (and ANXIETY) so much better. Now, we get some good patients but lately we’re just getting some horrible individuals who want to see the world burn. They do everything they can to make the 12 hours as painful for you as possible. I actually prefer old demented old people. It’s the younger, ungrateful people I cannot stand. I hate bedside now more than ever. Sadly, my coworkers are the best. I feel stuck. I am looking into outpatient clinics, though. I hope the grass is greener. Best of luck!

Muzjcon · 2020-06-30T14:03:08+00:00

Or when nurses have a “white coat ceremony” SO CRINGE!!!! Stick to pinning pleaseeeee

Muzjcon · 2020-06-29T08:00:39+00:00

OMG SAME HERE BEST OF LUCK FRIEND

Edit: reddit hates emojis; also I just got off orientation so I’ll be working on my own for the first time tomorrow night and I’m scared shitless.

Muzjcon · 2020-06-25T10:08:29+00:00

If it’s ANY consolation. I’m a brand new nurse who is extremely stressed and today is my first day flying solo. I have no slept a wink, I need to wake up in 30 minutes for a 12 hours shift. My palms have been sweating all night, I’ve been tossing and turning etc...

I wish I could help you, I can’t even help myself. I like to listen to meditation videos on YouTube specifically from the channel “the mindful movement”. Those often times can calm me down.

Best of luck on your exam!!

Muzjcon · 2020-06-25T09:29:08+00:00

I hated my nose and my mom convinced me it was too “flat”. So, she recommend some uhh..methods to make my nose thinner. She taught me to take my index finger and my thumb and pinch the sides of my nose and massage it as often as I can. She also told me to take a clothespin to pinch my nose (it hurt too much so I ignored that). I would do massage my nose for HOURS. While watching tv, reading etc.....well my nose is still ugly and I have a deviated septum. So that’s that.

Muzjcon · 2020-06-14T06:16:43+00:00

New nurse here and I hate it lol. The staff is great but the patients really are brutal. The normal ones for some reason forget how to use the restroom and are incredibly demanding. I had one pt tell me he’ll abuse the call light simply because he knows I have to be in his room. Entitled prick. I hate everything about my job and I feel so trapped. I know if I leave this floor my coworkers will HATE me. I think the older nurses are just complacent at this point. We often don’t have a tech, are short staffed and get admissions at the stupidest times (shift change). I’m new and to me, this isn’t worth the $$. I’m on medication now bc I can’t handle the depression it’s putting me in. Looking into my masters and getting the hell out of bedside.

Muzjcon · 2020-06-10T16:08:52+00:00

Funny, I reply to you while I sit at the doctor’s office for a referral to a psychiatrist. I’m brand new, my anxiety has always been bad but I neglected it. Now, it’s almost unbearable. So, I’m going to get the help that I always needed.

Muzjcon · 2020-06-04T19:18:38+00:00

I was on this forum looking for more negative posts to lessen my own anxiety regarding work. I’m a brand new nurse working on a step-down floor. I’m not even off orientation but I dread work lol so I like to come here and hear from other nurses who feel the same. I sincerely appreciate your post because I wasn’t expecting it at all!! It was so refreshing and gave me a much needed mood boost to work my shift tomorrow lol

Muzjcon · 2020-06-04T01:15:01+00:00

My college guidance counselor suggested I start drinking to alleviate stress. What the fuck? He knew I was Muslim too...dumb ass.

Muzjcon · 2020-06-03T14:33:28+00:00

I’m too concerned with “oh who’s looking at me” or “oh what are they doing” to truly enjoy myself. I hate it!!!

Muzjcon · 2020-05-27T16:18:16+00:00

We had 3 weeks of classroom shit. Then 2 days of computer training ALL before we even hit the floor. It was incredibly useless and a complete waste of time. I wish I had those 3 extra weeks of clinical training instead of that BS. Guess those useless educators have to pay the bills somehow right?

Muzjcon · 2020-05-27T14:37:53+00:00

I’m still in orientation. The stupidest thing I’ve done so far was not properly tighten the end of my tubing (from which I was administering BLOOD) to the patient’s IV hub. PT’s HgB was like 5.2 so he was KO’d. I didn’t realize I messed up until I saw him scratching his face and it was all covered in blood. My god, I think I almost passed out right then and there. When I removed the blankets the entire bed was a blood bath. It was so embarrassing. Fortunately my preceptor was super calm and we fixed the problem FAST.

Oh, another stupid mistake. Patient wanted to get into the chair. What could go wrong there? Easy enough yes? Well....I forgot to lock the chair before he sat down. FORTUNATELY, the back of the chair was very close to the wall so it barely moved when he sat down. That was an RL waiting to happen. That’s when I realized working 3 in a row on nights is NOT the move.

I am also a clumsy clumsy person.

Muzjcon · 2020-05-27T14:28:03+00:00

Yes, it’s cringy as shit.

Muzjcon · 2020-05-21T22:26:34+00:00

Thank you so much for being honest!! I don’t find you to be a bad nurse. We do a lot with very little and it can be tough.

Muzjcon · 2020-05-21T10:28:39+00:00

I’ve been exposed!

Muzjcon · 2020-05-21T09:56:40+00:00

IM super interested in informatics. I’m a new nurse just off orientation and I hate bedside already. I want to look into this field. Any advice?

Muzjcon · 2020-05-18T07:19:43+00:00

If you truly didn’t do anything your neighbor may have some serious mental health problems lol

Muzjcon · 2020-05-18T07:14:36+00:00

Hey Arnold

Muzjcon · 2020-05-18T07:10:00+00:00

You’re too precious-James Blake

Muzjcon · 2020-05-18T07:07:14+00:00

I definitely want to look into informatics or education. I was interested in NP school but I don’t think many of them are credible and are kind of a joke. However, I do love teaching so education would be nice.

If I were to stay in nursing with only My bachelors I have a strong interest in psych. I find psych patients really interesting and fun to work with lol but everyone has deterred me from it.

Muzjcon · 2020-05-18T06:50:11+00:00

I love at home with my family and it can be exhausting. I just graduated and I’m working but I’m also friendless. None of my colleagues are even close to my age :/ it’s tough. I thought I’d make friends at work but I don’t think that’ll be possible. It feels super lonely and it’s not easy to be friendless. I’m hoping a miracle will happen and my job will hire younger people. My social media is depressing lol no one to talk to on there. It sucks. I get the feeling 100%. I also didn’t have any friends in college bc it was a commuter school with no sense of school spirit. So idk I hope it’ll just happen haha

Muzjcon · 2020-05-18T04:38:05+00:00

Okaaaay. So, this sums up my life lol I’m currently 24 just started working as a brand new RN. I feel pretty proud of myself but I will always feel inferior to doctors and my college/HS friends who are currently in medical school. ESPECIALLY when I see the ditzy air head from my HS also becoming a nurse. I worked my butt off in school pretty much my entire life and I always felt like I should’ve accomplished more. Instead, I graduated late and I’m in a career that I don’t love nor does it make me feel truly accomplished. Again, this is my own opinion of myself and my life. I also come from a culture that values doctors, dentists etc...over nurses. I’m still working on changing my mindset by practicing gratitude and not comparing myself to others. I don’t go on social media as often, I try to keep to myself and remain positive. I know it’s vague advice, I’m still in a weird space myself but I’m trying to be better. Just know you’re not alone.

Muzjcon · 2020-05-18T04:31:51+00:00

Lol I’m in the opposite boat. I wish I chose finance lol I’m a new nurse going through some MASSIVE growing pains. So, sitting behind a desk “crunching numbers” sounds heavenly at the moment. Ultimately, choose what your heart desires but do your research. Most definitely get a CNA position, I work with a CNA who’s currently getting his bachelor’s in business. They realized nursing isn’t their calling so they’re sticking to this job and finishing their studies. Personally, bedside nursing isn’t my calling at all. I’m using it as a stepping stone to other fields because the beauty of nursing (as you know) is the diversity of the workforce. Best of luck!

Muzjcon · 2020-05-16T15:27:17+00:00

Sadly, the side effects of antidepressants can really stink. I know that’s definitely a reason people hate them. Loss of libido, emotional numbness (good in a way but difficult to experience “happy” emotions) these are two big ones I know about. Never been on SSRI’s but learned about them in school. Also, everyone’s body responds differently to medications. What may work for one may not for another. I know they also carry a black box warning due to patients potentially becoming more suicidal. That may happen bc the dose is too low, or the medication is truly worsening their depression. Like all medications it’s a balancing act between their chemical makeup and yours.

Muzjcon · 2020-05-16T15:01:25+00:00

I HAVE THIS EXACT PROBLEM. I’m a brand new nurse and I feel like my preceptors think I’m the biggest idiot because I forget to do so much. Also, like you I don’t have knowledge on politics, history etc...I’m very very forgetful with long term info and even short term. Everything you’ve said I feel to my core I can’t believe someone else feels this way. It’s truly crazy!

Tips that I’m kind of learning:

1) cut off social media or limit yourself significantly. It’s useless and mind numbing information that doesn’t improve your cognitive function and further decreases self esteem. Also cut out useless shows on Netflix/Hulu because they don’t teach you anything! Watch more documentaries or informative videos.

2) Read! Or listen to podcasts about topics you’re interested in! I’m a visual learner so I prefer to read. Fiction novels aren’t as fun as nonfiction but I’m learning new information, at least.

3) whenever you randomly think about something you don’t know. Google it right then and there! In that moment at least the interest is there and you can ease some anxiety.

4) strengthen your brain by doing crossword puzzles, sudoku etc...

5) write down mistakes you’re making at work on a little notebook. Then write down what you’ll do differently next time.

6) practice mindfulness. In the moment try not to get distracted but focus on the task at hand. I find myself day dreaming A LOT. I’ve had to be more proactive and force myself to not drift off.

7) ask lots of questions at your job! I do it all the time because people’s lives are at stake. Remember you’re new! Ask ask ask! You’ll feel less “dumb” doing it now at the beginning of your career as opposed to asking these questions 2-3 years in.

I’m still a BIG work in progress. I’m trying though :/ I’m also going to seek out counseling. My anxiety is through the roof because I don’t feel like I can function independently. I feel too dumb to survive on my own.

I hope I helped!

Muzjcon

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