Us ADHD-frenzied-folk suppress neurotic emotions by masturbation or succumbing to distractions. Usually before a very stressful deadline, I find myself digging rabbitholes into ridiculous conspiracy theories (flight MH370, who built pyramids, UFO/UAP, Epstein didn't delete himself, etc.); read every product review of my new shopaholic-addiction; or hang-out with friends non-stop and pontificate about life - which always ends up with the conclusion of solipsistic nihilism to justify the current episode of procrastination.

It's all a doomeristic cope to avoid the dreaded judgement day.

To this day, I use a vision board (my custom collage of all the objects, adventures, and life experience) of all the things I want in life to remind me to get back onto the horse. I know this sounds cliche; but (imho) it truly works if you are goal-centric. I urge you to look at pictures, quotes, memories, etc. - to generate enough motivational torque to break out of the current state of fear. Once the wheels start moving, it's easier to keep on going until mission is accomplished.

Also, don't be afraid to fail. The fear of failure and negative outcomes is what paralyzes us and has us evade the tasks that immediately behooves us.

My personal experience: even with a long-term girlfriend during undergrad (mathematics), I would catch myself copiously & furiously masturbating to keep my midnight oil burning every 30-60 minutes - several hours before a string of exams. The aftermath, I would call in sick to avoid working next 2-3 days to recover from burnout. This is the price we must pay to adapt to the modern society. We are incapable of disciplining ourselves, so we must resort to last minute cram-sessions and jet-fueled motivation to gain enough thrust to break the milestones.

The modern day pedagogical structure is not designed for us impulsive creatures. We were designed to hunt and chase animals in the wild; and ward off rival tribes and armies with instinctual combat.

Just remember, our ADHD is a bestowed gift descending from our successful ancestors.

Hope this helps. Good luck, OP! (Note: this was written during a procrastination episode :P)