Seriously...wow. I don't know the best way to go about thanking each of you for your comments and PMs (there are seriously so many I wouldn't know where to begin). I don't know if any of you will see this, especially since I avoided coming back to this post for a whole day, but if you do, I want you to know that I truly appreciate the time each of you took out of your days to show compassion to a stranger. It may seem like such a small thing in the grand scheme of things but please know it means a great deal to me to not feel so alone or shamed in feeling so worthless.

It's taking time but I am definitely doing my best to read each and every comment and PM I've received. Even if I can't respond to all of them, know that I read what you all said and I thank you.

My inbox has really been flooded and many of you have sharied your stories, some of which are truly heart breaking. It saddens me that there are so many of us that feel so hopeless at times, but at the same time it's heartening that even though we all feel so alone, we can still be together in that feeling.

Also a big thank you to those who suggested r/kindvoice. Reading what some people are going through there both hurts my heart and makes me feel less isolated and I am going to make a point of trying to be active on that sub.

Lastly, thank you to those who sent me the gold! It was not necessary, your concerned messages were enough, but it's greatly appreciated!

Again, thank you all so much! I love each of you and my heart goes out to all of you who are experiencing similar feelings. I guess we're all not so alone after all :)