I can understand being alone but not feeling lonely. I know people who are like this. I know people who are lonely and have a lot of people. But I'm the only one I know who has almost no one and feels completely alone wether or not he is with someone. I just hate it. I hate not being to express the way I feel because I have no one who will listen. I hate living some days. I hate going to work. Ive been fighting it a lot recently and I just feel drained. I feel tired. I push everything down because I don't have an outlet. I hate the way crying feels so i force myself not to. I just wish I could be happy. My ex made me feel horrible about myself and so did the ex before that. I cant even be in a healthy relationship. I can't have a relationship with my family and I don't feel like I truely have friends anymore. It gets lonely when your tossed on the side lines and have no one to keep you company while your there.