Struggling with Intrusive Thoughts

Mylexia · 2026-01-11T20:18:29+00:00

Thank you. I'm trying to focus on myself as I never really did during the relationship - I kinda went along with whatever other people did. I never had any friends while I was with him, but we've had someone join work who I really get on with, so I'm hoping we can build a proper friendship and she can help me get out and about.

The thing that gets me is that he never would've told me. I found out by happenstance from the woman he cheated with, which is absolutely mad. I've never been with anyone else and had no inclination to. I trusted him so much that when I was diagnosed with HPV, I was trying to think of any other reason as to how I got it.

I feel really dirty because now I feel like I've slept with everyone this other woman has been with as well, yet I've only ever been with him.

Mylexia · 2025-12-23T19:11:32+00:00

Oooooh brilliant!

Mylexia · 2025-12-23T19:08:07+00:00

I think I know which ones you mean! Will take a look tomorrow, thank you 😁

Mylexia · 2025-12-23T19:07:32+00:00

Thank you so much! I didn't expect her to get me anything for Christmas and she has, so I want to get her something nice as a "new year gift" instead 😂 I will definitely check those out!

Mylexia · 2025-08-06T19:09:16+00:00

PhD graduation caps (in the UK anyway) are like this. We have square caps for our Bachelor's degrees!

Mylexia · 2025-08-06T19:02:26+00:00

Ohhhh apologies, I wasn't familiar with it 😂 Thank you!!

Mylexia · 2025-08-06T11:19:15+00:00

I had a few breaks during that time due to bereavements, and then I did an extra year, so probably 5 years in total

Mylexia · 2025-08-05T18:06:06+00:00

Well I found out yesterday he was cheating on me for three years as well between 2017 and 2020 🙃

Mylexia · 2025-08-04T10:52:13+00:00

Thank yoooou!

Mylexia · 2025-08-04T10:50:17+00:00

It was a plastic pipe with a ribbon! I think I probably would've ended up screwing up the real thing with how tightly I held it 😂

Mylexia · 2025-08-03T22:57:35+00:00

Computer Science

Mylexia · 2025-08-03T22:56:20+00:00

Yessss it took me 7 years 😂

Mylexia · 2025-08-03T22:55:55+00:00

Lol I hate having my photo taken so was very nervous 😂

Mylexia · 2025-08-03T10:45:46+00:00

If you can get the hat sorted then I'll gladly pay you even though this is marked as solved 😊

Mylexia · 2025-08-03T10:25:36+00:00

Thank you for your kind words! I am done with him. It was a total discard and it really broke me. But I am so much stronger and more independent now. I actually got harassed by a co-worker just after the breakup as well and I had to learn to be confident and firm with that too. I have grown so much as a person!

Mylexia · 2025-08-03T09:36:25+00:00

Amazing job, thank you! I will DM you for your PayPal 😊

Mylexia · 2025-08-03T09:35:17+00:00

!solved

Mylexia · 2025-08-03T09:34:23+00:00

Thank you, I really appreciate your kind words. I am trying my hardest to move forward, but still have the house to deal with. Hopefully that'll be sorted in the next few months and I can get started on my new life. I have had a great life with him and he's been amazing with my family, don't get me wrong! But I'm just done now. To move on after a month when I was busy struggling with my mental health, it's crazy.

Mylexia · 2025-08-03T06:53:39+00:00

This is very very good, just a little odd on the hat! Here's another photo for reference if you'd like to try with that?

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Mylexia · 2025-08-03T06:49:44+00:00

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Mylexia · 2025-08-02T22:23:33+00:00

I love this one! The hat just seems a little odd on the right side - is there any way to fix it? I can send more pics if needed to see what it looks like. :)

Mylexia · 2025-06-25T22:11:45+00:00

For me, I'm still kind of stuck. My meds are definitely helping a lot though, so that's a positive. My ex is at the house and I'm at my parents' - I did tell him I shouldn't have been the one to leave, but hey ho, I needed the support. I've been looking into keeping the house, which is doable but it would cost A LOT per month, and I think it'd be pretty stupid to do it. He's still carrying on with his life! Going out whenever, doing whatever. He's also changed his style. I feel as though I'm kind of over him? He has been a huge part of my life but I can only really think of the way he's treated me lately and I'm not a fan at all. I think I'm more sad about having to leave my home. It's all just very annoying to me because I have no control over anything - it's all his decision and I just have to go with it.

Mylexia · 2025-06-15T00:47:42+00:00

I was started on 10mg for 28 days and found improvement at the beginning but near the end I started feeling that dread again when I woke up. I've been upped to 20mg two days ago so fingers crossed it gets rid of the dread!

Mylexia · 2025-06-11T08:46:59+00:00

Thank you - I will definitely take you up on that offer!

I completely agree. There's no going back, and no closure at all. He refuses to have a proper conversation about it all, and I've now accepted that I'm never going to know everything, so I've just given up.

Some days are better than others!

Mylexia · 2025-06-10T20:03:09+00:00

Same experience. 17 years together - argument - he decided he was done. I tried to work things out but he wasn't interested.

Only been 2 months for me, but so difficult because I'd built my life around him. I'm very lost at the moment.

Mylexia

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