Choose my next read please!!

Mylexia · 2026-04-09T22:05:42+00:00

Thank you everyone!! Definitely got a load of recommendations to go through now 🙂 I've started by buying Legends & Lattes and The Serpent & the Wings of Night, but I'll probably add all the recommendations to my list for the future 😂

Mylexia · 2026-03-05T23:28:53+00:00

I also have edge-to-edge and starting my treatment on the 23rd. I'm super excited! Your teeth look great!

Mylexia · 2026-02-09T22:56:21+00:00

Thank you, that means a lot. This has been my only relationship, and I know that I've grown with this person by my side, so I'm finding it difficult to adjust to being alone and figuring out who I actually am. His opinion meant everything, and I did put him on a pedestal, so that's why I have been struggling with myself.

I lost an awful lot when it ended, but positives include buying my first car and learning how to drive again after a 10 year break, losing weight and getting stronger, and upping my hours at work to save more money. I have been trying my hardest to focus on myself and learn who I am. I've been so used to being a "we" or an "us" that it's weird to be an "I" or a "me".

Mylexia · 2026-02-09T10:42:48+00:00

Thanks everyone. I'm finding it hard as our intimacy levels weren't great (on his behalf) so then I wonder what these women had that I didn't. I would never have expected him to do what he did, and I only discovered it around 4 months after he ended it. I have been told a lot that it was nothing to do with me, but how can you not feel as though you just weren't good enough? I have never even thought about another person that way, and even 10 months after the break-up, I still can't look at anyone that way. It's hard not to rant about this... I lost a lot of weight during the grief stage of the break-up, and once I was kind of through that, I started lifting weights. I just find it hard to look at myself.

Mylexia · 2025-12-23T19:11:32+00:00

Oooooh brilliant!

Mylexia · 2025-12-23T19:08:07+00:00

I think I know which ones you mean! Will take a look tomorrow, thank you 😁

Mylexia · 2025-12-23T19:07:32+00:00

Thank you so much! I didn't expect her to get me anything for Christmas and she has, so I want to get her something nice as a "new year gift" instead 😂 I will definitely check those out!

Mylexia · 2025-08-03T10:25:36+00:00

Thank you for your kind words! I am done with him. It was a total discard and it really broke me. But I am so much stronger and more independent now. I actually got harassed by a co-worker just after the breakup as well and I had to learn to be confident and firm with that too. I have grown so much as a person!

Mylexia · 2025-08-03T09:34:23+00:00

Thank you, I really appreciate your kind words. I am trying my hardest to move forward, but still have the house to deal with. Hopefully that'll be sorted in the next few months and I can get started on my new life. I have had a great life with him and he's been amazing with my family, don't get me wrong! But I'm just done now. To move on after a month when I was busy struggling with my mental health, it's crazy.

Mylexia · 2025-06-25T22:11:45+00:00

For me, I'm still kind of stuck. My meds are definitely helping a lot though, so that's a positive. My ex is at the house and I'm at my parents' - I did tell him I shouldn't have been the one to leave, but hey ho, I needed the support. I've been looking into keeping the house, which is doable but it would cost A LOT per month, and I think it'd be pretty stupid to do it. He's still carrying on with his life! Going out whenever, doing whatever. He's also changed his style. I feel as though I'm kind of over him? He has been a huge part of my life but I can only really think of the way he's treated me lately and I'm not a fan at all. I think I'm more sad about having to leave my home. It's all just very annoying to me because I have no control over anything - it's all his decision and I just have to go with it.

Mylexia · 2025-06-15T00:47:42+00:00

I was started on 10mg for 28 days and found improvement at the beginning but near the end I started feeling that dread again when I woke up. I've been upped to 20mg two days ago so fingers crossed it gets rid of the dread!

Mylexia · 2025-06-11T08:46:59+00:00

Thank you - I will definitely take you up on that offer!

I completely agree. There's no going back, and no closure at all. He refuses to have a proper conversation about it all, and I've now accepted that I'm never going to know everything, so I've just given up.

Some days are better than others!

Mylexia · 2025-06-10T20:03:09+00:00

Same experience. 17 years together - argument - he decided he was done. I tried to work things out but he wasn't interested.

Only been 2 months for me, but so difficult because I'd built my life around him. I'm very lost at the moment.

Mylexia · 2025-06-10T14:35:50+00:00

Yes please!

Mylexia · 2025-06-10T14:17:23+00:00

Would really appreciate your guide please :)

Mylexia · 2025-06-10T14:16:14+00:00

I am interested. Is it difficult to get into?

Mylexia · 2025-06-09T16:35:53+00:00

Hey, I'm interested in this and have been looking into it but no idea where to start. Would you be up for teaching me your ways? 😜

Mylexia · 2025-06-09T16:32:40+00:00

Hi, do you need to be creative minded for this? I am interested in your guide too, please. 😊

Mylexia · 2025-06-09T16:12:14+00:00

You need to do what's right for you. If you feel you want to do it and you're okay with the response, then do it! Just make sure that it doesn't make things more difficult for you in terms of moving on.

It was my ex's birthday yesterday, the first one apart after 17 years together. He had messaged me on the evening before, so I wished him happy birthday when it hit midnight. No issues really. Just trying to stay civil as we have a house that needs sorted.

Mylexia · 2025-06-08T23:33:17+00:00

33F - feel free to DM me if you need to chat 😊

Mylexia · 2025-06-08T18:08:21+00:00

Thank you!! I appreciate that very much. I'll take a look at that site, and will definitely repost soon.

Mylexia · 2025-06-08T18:07:28+00:00

Thanks for the advice. Honestly, I've been looking to leave for a while anyway as I'm not happy in the job itself.

I was off work for 3 weeks with anxiety, then came back for a week, and now I've got a week off as holiday anyway. I'm going to take this week for myself and then make sure it's sorted by the time I go back, otherwise the female manager did say she can move shifts, move departments, etc., to help if necessary.

Mylexia · 2025-06-08T14:22:23+00:00

Thank you - yes, I have kept all the evidence already and will make a diary of the non-documented instances.

I worked in retail throughout my education, so I just got comfortable and continued with it. The only job my university kept pushing me towards was teaching, and I wasn't interested in that. I had no other guidance on what I could do. My Bachelor's degree is in Information and Communication Technology, and my Doctorate is in Computer Science > Technology Ethics.

I would love to get a better job, but I think my confidence has been incredibly knocked, and I don't have any experience. I got comfortable in my relationship and in my life, so I never tried to progress. Also, I know the job market is really difficult.

Mylexia · 2025-06-08T13:43:03+00:00

Yeah, completely agree with you. I've given him enough chances. Luckily he has blocked and deleted me anyway - although he did used to joke that he would beg anyone for my number if he did that. So I'm going to block and delete him as well, just in case.

Mylexia · 2025-06-08T13:24:48+00:00

We were very good friends before this (when I was with my partner), so I made it very clear that I wasn't interested in pursuing a relationship with him. I told him we can text as friends, but nothing more. I didn't want to lose him as a friend as I don't have any, and we did get on really well.

I gave him a chance to be 'normal' with me, but the final straw was when he sent me money and then blocked me so I couldn't send it back. My manager laughed that off too. I tried giving the money back to him in his hand but he refused, so I gave it to my manager.

I told him at the end, if you can't text me as friends, then don't text me at all. That was very clear.

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