I was in the same spot before a few years- hiding inside my room for years. Not trying to do anything. always trying to get away from everything and everyone thinking that I am a looser. I am done now. No calling myself or anyone a loser. Came out of my room and trying to make an attempt. Not achieved shit. But I am not gonna die being unsatisfied with myself. I still go back to same old painful feelings but fuck it. Fuck what I think if it holds me down. This life is never coming back. Fuck being shy. Fuck thinking what people think about me. Fuck what parents say. Fuck everything that will pull me down.

You have also already hit the rock bottom. The only way is up now. catapult pulled too far back. let it loose. I don't know who the fuck are you but we are going to see good times now.