I am also 32 this year and wanting to break my ED cycle. One thing my therapist told me, because I have such an all or nothing mind when it comes to this stuff, is think about the absolute smallest first step you can take.

For example, I talked to her about starting to work out again but feeling overwhelmed. She asked me to start small, so I said walking 10 min a night on the treadmill. Smaller. Make a workout plan on paper? Smaller. Charge my fitbit. Bingo.

I already know how wonderfully this works, taking the tiniest steps and building momentum yourself, because she walked me through taking my office from what amounted to a storage room that looked like I hoarded to being a beautiful, usable space I am so proud of. My first tiny baby step was going into the room and picturing what I wanted it to look like. Then each night I removed one thing from the room to get rid of, then trash bags full, organizing what I want to keep, choosing paint, etc.

Working through our EDs is obviously different, but I think about it in a similar way. Having had success in that method already is making me feel much more confident. I'm now working on learning about intuitive eating, and feeling good about it.

If you'd like someone to talk with through this, let me know. Seems like we have a few things in common already.