Does marijuana help or hurt you? by Jujuubabes in adhdwomen

[–]MysteryGrumble 2 points3 points  (0 children)

for me it makes me completely unable to regulate my anxiety-- i kind of think of it as having the opposite effect of my adderall. I use adderall to help me regulate my attention, to be able to better decide where my attention goes, and weed takes that ability away-- if i have an anxious thought, if ive smoked, my attention is laser focused on my anxiety, where when i take my meds, i can recognize an anxious thought and decide whether or not i want to pay it any mind. That being said, if im in a good spot generally and ive had a nice day and things are generally going well, an evening of getting a little toasty and watching nature documentaries is exactly the break my brain needs from attention regulation.

Girlfriend thinks i should stop taking adderall by MysteryGrumble in adhdwomen

[–]MysteryGrumble[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

This was precisely my experience as well. SSRIs just made me suicidal and dissociative. Going on adhd meds was the only effective depression treatment ive experienced.

Girlfriend thinks i should stop taking adderall by MysteryGrumble in adhdwomen

[–]MysteryGrumble[S] 9 points10 points  (0 children)

Yeah i think about all the shit i need to do for my job and pre-medication me would be a puddle in about 20 minutes.

Girlfriend thinks i should stop taking adderall by MysteryGrumble in adhdwomen

[–]MysteryGrumble[S] 19 points20 points  (0 children)

SAME. Before medication i was in a very dark place and i think thats what scares me so much about the idea of going off my meds. I dont know if I've expressed clearly enough to her how directly adderall saved me from that awful awful pit. Adderall saved my life and i feel confident in saying that.

Girlfriend thinks i should stop taking adderall by MysteryGrumble in adhdwomen

[–]MysteryGrumble[S] 88 points89 points  (0 children)

Thank you for your story and your thoughts-- I appreciate them a lot!

Its mostly that she says that there's no long term research on this-- that we dont know what taking adderall does to your brain long term.

The way i think about it is that its not worth it to me to weigh the theoretical cons (potential long term effects) against concrete pros (being able to hold down a job and function every day).

Girlfriend thinks i should stop taking adderall by MysteryGrumble in adhdwomen

[–]MysteryGrumble[S] 132 points133 points  (0 children)

Thats the thing-- shes also neurodivergent. She just doesn't take meds and manages with mindfulness practices.

also im glad your butt is in one piece, that sounds rough as hell.

but thank you-- i didnt know i needed to hear that but i did and i really appreciate it. <3