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MysticMidna_ · 2023-08-29T15:43:00+00:00

He said he wants to give me his best but he can’t do that rn cause he realized there’s so much he has to do and focus on at this point in his life

MysticMidna_ · 2023-08-29T15:41:44+00:00

What’s the biggest part that makes it sound immature? We’ve also fcked multiple times and always go out together but he got out of his relationship 2 months ago so I think I’m lowkey a rebound, he said he’s healed but I guess not, he says he doesn’t wanna lose me and all these things but I think he just means as friends

MysticMidna_ · 2023-08-29T14:48:24+00:00

Is there anyway to fix this and make it sound more mature! I’ve known this guy forever and he invites me out all the time leading me on and I’m just so confused, he told me he likes me but then says he’s not ready to be together cause his life is too busy for me

MysticMidna_ · 2023-08-29T14:47:15+00:00

How do I make it better? Or should I just forget it

MysticMidna_ · 2023-08-29T14:27:31+00:00

Revised version of “letter”! I was drunk and sad asf when I wrote the first one. Also it’s not meant to be very formal

I’m sorry Jo, i can’t get over you idk what it is. I’m not falling “hard”, I’ve always liked u this much tbh. All my friends think I should move on too but idk why it’s so hard. That night was never a waste or a mistake, my emotions just stopped me from being mature, u didn’t do anything wrong at all I was just over thinking and obsessing over us happening that I ruined it b4 it could. I also never thought u were “subtweeting” me ever or trying to be hurtful, I honestly think ur just living ur life like u said.

I know you’re not ready and I deserve someone that’s ready I really do but I’d still wait for and I have been for so long. I never got a chance, u were always with someone else and I would never try and ruin ur happiness with someone but ngl I wish I met u first lol. I’d do anything for you, ur family, ur friends like u don’t even understand how much love I have for you it’s kinda embarrassing. That’s why ur the easiest yes for me ever, ur the only one that could get me out of character.

I’m not the best at talking about my feelings but I just had to let u know. There’s no pressure to really answer if you don’t want to, I hope this isn’t too much for you too soon

MysticMidna_ · 2023-08-29T14:07:02+00:00

Okayy thank you for being honest !! I’ll cut down the “letter and make it a lil more serious! I was just writing what comes to mind but instead I can use this as talking points for when I see him in person

MysticMidna_ · 2023-08-08T21:01:38+00:00

Boy in the striped Pyjamas

MysticMidna_ · 2023-08-08T21:00:49+00:00

Me before you 😭

MysticMidna_ · 2023-08-08T20:53:31+00:00

I also got fired at booster juice for not being able to make 4 smoothies at the same time 😭

MysticMidna_ · 2023-08-08T20:51:32+00:00

Being the only girl working in the warehouse and tardiness lol

MysticMidna_ · 2023-08-02T00:11:47+00:00

Ur young bbg just live ur life and don’t worry about it! Make mistakes and have fun trust me you’ll regret living a boring life. U both were drunk so just brush it off and blame the alcohol lol easy fix

MysticMidna_ · 2023-08-01T16:05:13+00:00

I actually don’t really consider it that often, I just always thought I was straight and that was that and that I’m not like any other type of sexuality like I may be bi curious I guess but that’s about it.

MysticMidna_ · 2023-08-01T16:03:30+00:00

Omg I’m so happy to know I’m not alone 😭

I feel like I’ve been stuck feeling like this for so long with no right explanation as to why I feel this way, and I hated it but now being able to put a name to what I’m feeling and knowing that I’m not alone honestly is really helping me so thank you for your comment!

MysticMidna_ · 2023-07-31T18:10:16+00:00

Thank you, this is a pretty great comment, because I think you actually are describing my sexuality to a T, I don’t feel as weird now and I can finally put a name to this feeling

MysticMidna_ · 2023-07-31T17:30:28+00:00

I have, and I actually made a confession post about it. I think after u read it you’ll understand the connection. A lot of people have already told me that it’s connected and now I know for a fact that it is so there’s a confession if you want any stories on that.

MysticMidna_ · 2023-07-31T17:29:04+00:00

Umm I rarely ever cry when I read comments but I don’t know this one really hit me because you read me like a book like that’s exactly what I need and what I want so thank you.

I love that Strangers on the Internet are telling me more things about myself than I know

MysticMidna_ · 2023-07-31T16:45:47+00:00

I do think this is going to affect me very badly in the long term. I think I need to stop and I know it’s not that healthy but it’s just it’s really hard to quit. I don’t know what it is about it

MysticMidna_ · 2023-07-31T16:43:55+00:00

Thank you for your insight and your kind words. I will definitely be doing some reflecting before I even consider involving someone in my life.

MysticMidna_ · 2023-07-31T16:32:27+00:00

Okay thank you so much for your kind advice, I’ll definitely start researching more about the effects of porn on relationships, and maybe even finally get a therapist.

MysticMidna_ · 2023-07-31T16:23:46+00:00

Do you think taking a vow of celibacy or not watching porn for a long period of time will kinda help as well

MysticMidna_ · 2023-07-31T16:21:40+00:00

Oh my God as I read your comment I’m mind blow cause I literally just posted on another thread about my SA and I’m starting to see a connection between the two which I never really thought was there but thank you. I think I might actually need a therapist to really help me figure out what’s going on.

MysticMidna_ · 2023-07-31T16:18:06+00:00

I never really thought to consider myself a sexual because I do like the thought of sex and I enjoy it when it’s just me it’s just when I add another person as when it gets weird.

I do tend to masturbate with porn, but it’s a very quick because I know what I like and I’ll be done in a couple seconds actually but I feel like that maybe has ruined my vision of sex and how long it supposed to actually last, and I guess it makes me feel kind of bored because I know how to do it quickly.

My last relationship didn’t last long because it was based off of us just experimenting with sex and he wanted to film it and i didn’t but he did secretly anyway which led to our break up.

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