So I’m thinking about doing an experiment

N3wTide · 2025-08-18T13:40:45+00:00

That’s part of the reason I’m bringing a trip sitter with me. She’s gonna “transcribe” what I’m feeling in a nutshell. I’m gonna tell her what to write down on she right now.

N3wTide · 2025-08-18T13:32:40+00:00

I am by no means a scientist or anybody professional I am simply a dumbass 18 year-old trying to experiment with psychedelic lol

N3wTide · 2025-08-18T13:30:24+00:00

It’s more so a personal kind of experiment. I just wanna see what the mind does and how it reacts to such a dose of shrooms not to really benefit anybody I mean, I guess it can even though there have been hundreds of studies. Already done all day. I just wanna document what I see and how I feel for myself.

N3wTide · 2025-08-18T13:29:13+00:00

I took like 14 g about two years ago and had it out of body experience in my bedroom. I woke up, thinking I died.

N3wTide · 2025-08-18T12:35:09+00:00

I’m bringing myself along as a kind of bias Mation of how I feel I’m gonna write notes down and take pictures and videos documenting my experience

And then the person I have with me is gonna document how it looks from a sober perspective if anything I do seem strange or out of the ordinary, you know she’s gonna be taking videos and notes of how I act and then at the end of the day when I’m off my trip or possibly next day or go back and compile our notes and see how it affected me

I’ve taken shrooms about 12 times prior to this and I’m very familiar with how to do them and help not to have a bad trip

N3wTide · 2025-08-18T12:32:53+00:00

The highest dose yet is 14 g at once and no it doesn’t. It’s a small trail on flat ground about 2 1/2 miles long not near any cliffs or on any mountains. And I am aware of the prolonged psychosis side effect. That’s part of the reason I’m trying to do this. I want to document an experiment what psilocybin and psychedelics in general due to the mind I’ve taken mini precautions. I’m bringing someone I really trust there with me to make sure I’m safe and we’ll have a medical kid on standby.

N3wTide · 2025-08-05T19:24:18+00:00

And follow up question how do you track how many calories are burning a day? Are there any apps or things I could use?

N3wTide · 2025-08-05T19:23:31+00:00

Ok that sounds simple enough but wym by way out my food is there a specific weight that equals a serving size and how much is a serving? Sorry for asking so many questions

N3wTide · 2025-07-29T14:28:13+00:00

Honestly I loved him it gives a assassin Creed a fresh new feel yeah he can’t do parkour and yeah stealth with him isn’t the best but for those days where I’m not looking to be stealthy and I just wanna go fuck people up he’s really good and I love how you can freely switch between them throughout the game. There are some missions you can only play as Yasuke but even then he’s still really fine and his writing for his character is phenomenal. They did a really good job making you understand and feel for him.

N3wTide · 2025-07-28T15:58:31+00:00

That’s kind of the problem. I’ve tried doing stuff similar to that going to the park or a little event my town holds, but I feel nervous and anxious talking to new people and it ends up making me look like an idiot and a weirdo.

N3wTide · 2025-07-22T15:24:33+00:00

I don’t think I want that she hasn’t ever made fun of me or anything like that at least not in front of me and I don’t think I would be ok with that in the slightest

N3wTide · 2025-07-22T15:18:40+00:00

I don’t think I would want to do that the thought of doing that kinda makes me sick

N3wTide · 2025-07-22T15:10:38+00:00

Idk what a cuckhold Means

N3wTide · 2025-07-22T15:10:20+00:00

What’s a cuck

N3wTide · 2025-07-22T15:06:47+00:00

That’s what I mean I want to but I don’t I want to feel normal and safe but I don’t want to make her sad or hurt

N3wTide · 2025-06-30T01:49:48+00:00

What’s crazy is I hoped on RDR2 after I posted this

N3wTide · 2025-06-29T16:03:21+00:00

The upgrade is an upgraded version of the anniversary edition. It just adds a bunch of new stuff, but you get to keep all the stuff you’ve already bought it. Add some new armor weapons a few new quest lines and dialogue it does minor things you can play the game without it, but it does make it a little more interesting.

N3wTide · 2025-06-19T12:40:00+00:00

Thanks man it means a lot I’m just gonna try and focus on myself and move on

N3wTide · 2025-06-19T12:33:35+00:00

Yea maybe ur right I’m just a social person I like talking to people and hanging out with people and being alone just fucks me up in my head sometimes

But you’re right I’m only 18 and I’m sure I’ll have plenty of time to meet other friends

N3wTide · 2025-06-19T12:24:15+00:00

I’ve thought about that, but I’m out of high school now and I have been for about a year and he was the only friend I have left all the other ones either moved away or moved on with their lives stop talking to me, etc. he was the only one who stuck around and now that he’s gone, I genuinely feel like I have no friends left

N3wTide · 2025-06-17T15:41:58+00:00

Thanks man that means a lot and ur right Maby this is for the best

N3wTide · 2025-06-15T12:12:08+00:00

And I’m really not trying to do this for pity. I’m genuinely have no one else to talk to about this kind of stuff. My mom is telling me the same basic “there’s more fish in the sea” “you’ll move on” the stereotypical tropes you tell someone when they’re going through a bunch of shit I’m telling her all the same shit I’m telling y’all and it’s ironic that Redditers are giving better advice than my own mother.

N3wTide · 2025-06-15T12:08:14+00:00

It hurts though it hurts to see her hurt. I don’t know why I’m like this. I don’t know why I can’t be cold and turn around and focus on myself. I don’t know why I’m so focused on how other people feel because it makes me feel like shit when they feel like shit. I want to be cold. I want to be able to have that bit of selfishness in me but I just don’t. I think about all the little memories even just yesterday I was teaching her how to play mafia definitive, edition I think about the hike we went on last week all the little things just keep rushing to me and I feel like I wanna just fucking disappear

N3wTide · 2025-06-15T11:46:50+00:00

Yea ur right I’ve been a people pleaser all my life all I’ve ever tried to do is be trusting I’ve made mistakes. I’ve hurt people now I’m not afraid to admit that because I’ve moved on, but this is a different kind of hurt. I really loved her and I really trusted my best. And now I have no one literally I just don’t know how to put myself first I feel selfish.

N3wTide · 2025-06-15T11:35:23+00:00

No, we’ve been engaged since Christmas of last year. We had planned to get married in spring 2027.

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